fanvid friday | if you can’t feel, what’s the point? {the giver}

(Heyyyoooo!  Eowyn here, back from the evil clutches of college and life in general.  As some of you might know, Eva, Jane, and I tried to do a posting schedule when we first started feelsy feels, and it worked… for a while.  My day always ended up being about fanvids, though (I have no idea whyyyyyyy…. 😉 ).  I’m trying to step up the actual posts, but I think while that gets underway we’ll start a new series called Fanvid Friday where – you guessed it – Eva, Jane, and I will post new fanvids we love every Friday.  Savvy?  Let’s do this thing.)

This has got to be one of my favorite fanvids for The Giver.  I love the parallels between what Jonas told Fiona and what Fiona told Mother, and I also teared up when I realized what the song was.

Enjoy!

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the awesomeness that is AVERY

{This post will not make any sense whatsoever to anyone who’s not watched Combat! and, specifically, the episode “A Gift Of Hope”.  However, Ashley and Jane are still both away/busy so this is MY blog [muahahahahaha…] for right now, and this is what I wanted to post, so I’m doing it.}

{Also, this will be more of a mini-theawesomenessthatis post because Avery is only in one episode.  Still, he makes a powerful impression.}

“If you lose yourself, your courage soon will follow.  So be strong tonight…remember who you are.” ~lyrics from “Sound The Bugle”

Avery is a paradox for me.

Normally, I dislike (or, at the very least, feel an annoyance for) authority figures in war movies who do a lot of shouting at the men under them, ordering them around, and generally behaving like jerks.  (I also tend not to really like characters on Combat! who crack up under pressure, but I’ll get to that a little later.)  And, yet, I fell in love with Avery (in the ‘this is just a fictional character’ sense, of course).  I will admit that it took a couple viewings of “A Gift Of Hope” for my liking for him to fully come together, but now I like him just as much as all the show’s regulars.  I believe the reason I still really liked Avery was because he’s not just an overbearing platoon sergeant.  Or just a guy who breaks under the strain of war – and a gift of hope.

Really, it’s surprising just how much characterization Avery gets in an episode that’s less than an hour long.  We see him go from rough-and-tough platoon sergeant (who, I’ve got to say, does looks out for the New Guys very, very well) to a suspected deserter to a man cracking under pressure to someone who Saunders hardly recognizes (as Avery prepares to really desert) and then back to how we see him in Kirby’s flashback.  Avery’s character is shown to us bit by bit, layer by layer, until by the end of the episode, you really feel like you know him.  And…you do.  Avery is a deep, true, real character and I love that.

Avery is my favorite.  Also, Rip Torn is now one my most favorite actors of all time.

There’s something about Avery that’s just so cool.  I know it’s horrid slang to be using for the kind of person he is, but it’s true.  Mainly in Kirby’s flashback.  Everything from his helmet – it’s great, it’s so unique – to the way the words keep flying out of his mouth (alternately scolding and encouraging the new replacements), to the whole name/place thing…he’s so cool.  He really cares about the men under him, as shown perfectly by one of trademarks, that I unimaginatively call ‘the name/place thing’.  Consider…

Avery: “Batally (sp?), where’re you from?”
Batally: “Madison.  Wisconsin.”
Avery:  “Oh, yeah?  That’s a great town, I used to work there once.”
Batally:  “Yeah…”
Avery: “Had a wild little bar downtown, what’s the name of it?  Used to hang out there.”
Batally: “Uh…Angelo’s?  Third Street?”
Avery: “Yeah, that’s the one.”
Batally: *laughs a little*

Saunders: “Madison, Wisconsin.  You worked there, huh?”
Avery: “Well, sometimes maybe it helps to think that somebody knows your name, where you’re from.”

Plus, Avery’s the only person I know who can be on the receiving end of a Saunders’ Look and respond with a, “Well don’t look at me like that, Saunders.”  And that’s way. too. awesome. in and of itself. (Admittedly, the Look wasn’t one of Saunders Glares, but still…)

Speaking of Avery and Saunders, one thing that strikes me about him the most is how close he and Saunders are.  Saunders isn’t one to give his friendship like that to just anyone, and Avery really has his trust.  He’s been through North Africa and Italy and Sicily just like Saunders, which leads me to believe that perhaps Avery and Saunders knew each other before D-Day. That personal headcanon of mine makes what Saunders says about about “I never thought I’d want to see you dead” all the more heartwrenching. (On a slightly unrelated note, I love how the beginning of the episode dumps us right into the action without any real point of reference – we have no clue who this Avery guy is.  It feels very immediate and natural.)  

And I also like what White Queen has to say about the two of them in her review of the episode

Avery in the first flashback makes me grin — he’s being such a stereotypical sergeant, all loud and bossy. Saunders gives him a series of, “Do you have to do this?” looks. They’re like flip sides of the same coin, those two. Saunders is normally all into helping people over rough spots, but he can get loud and bossy when he needs to, and Avery’s the exact opposite. I dig it.

So after convincing Saunders that he didn’t run, he didn’t desert, Avery strikes out on a quest (dun-dun-DUN) with Saunders to clear his name.  They go back up to the front (much to Hanley’s mystification) and it’s while disabling a mine and walking through places that have shells falling pretty close in, that Saunders begins to see that, while Avery might not have deserted, he’s lost his nerve.  The climax of the episode comes when, after killing off a machine gun next of Germans singlehandedly, Saunders looks over to see Avery crying, completely shattered.

M'kay.  Let me talk about this scene for a sec.  Or, more specifically, the MUSIC in this scene.  Most of them time whenever an ENG or basically anyone besides a regular cracks up/loses their nerve, there's really scary/jittery music in the background.  But when in THIS scene, what is playing?  The C! theme, soft and quiet.  Makes me cry EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.

Oh, man.  That part always, always gets to me in hugely emotional way.  See, I’m the kind of person who notices the minutiae of music in films and TV shows.  I’ll listen for repeated musical themes (or even just notes) and tie in the fact that “OH MY GOODNESS THEY RE-USED THE SAME THEME FROM THAT SCENE FOR THIS SCENE IT MUST MEAN SOMETHING”.  I sometimes go a little overboard, but I can’t help it.  It’s just something I notice.  And, usually, whenever a character breaks up/loses their nerve on Combat!, the music is all moody/jittery/scary – total mood music.  But you know what they decided to play during that little bit of Avery just before the dramatic commercial break.  The theme tune, played slow and low.

THE THEME TUNE, PLAYED SLOW AND LOW.

Immediately, it gives Avery a distinction (in my mind) from all the other random guys who lose their nerve.  The whole thing is more respectful, in a way, and that’s what I love about it.  Plus, when the theme’s played like that, it’s sort of achingly beautiful.  So I cry a lot.

And the way Avery comes back around?  Perfect.  Absolutely perfect.  He’s leaving for good, going off to desert, even after Saunders told/asked him not to.  So he’s walking away, all firm and determined, when a group of young (verrry young) GIs call out to him and ask him, in so many words, if he can direct them to King Company. (Let me just say that the way Avery says – of King Company – “Yeah, that’s a good outfit” always makes me smile.)  No, he can’t, he’s being sent back to the States, etc, etc.  And then…and then… (I WILL NOT CRY.  I WILL NOT CRY.  I WILL NOT CRY.)

GI #1: “Hey, Sarge, did you ever see any of those new Kraut tanks?”
GI #2: “You know, the ones with the flamethrowers?  We heard they burned out a whole company from the 23rd.”
Avery: “Who told you that?”
GI #3: “Well, everybody knows it.”
Avery: “Well I don’t know it.  And if they haven’t thrown it at me, they ain’t got it.” [brief note: right after he says the above, you can see him thinking, kind of like “Should I walk away or keep talking?” and it’s amazing acting on Rip Torn’s part]  “You stop listenin’ to all that garbage, you hear me?  Learn to count on yourself.  There ain’t gonna be anyone up there to boost you over the rough spots, you gotta realize that…what’s your name?”
GI #2 (I think): “Pittinger.”
Avery: “Where’re you from?”
GI #2: “Tacomba.  Tacomba, Washington.”
Avery: “Yeah, I used to work up there.  Spent a lot of time in a real wild little bar downtown on the main drag.”
GI #2: “Tony’s!”
Avery: “Yeah, that’s the place.  I used to have some real wild times there…”

*melts into a puddle of feels*

Anyway.

They could’ve ended the episode there, and it would have been practically perfect, but they added in the greatest little tag scene with Saunders and Avery that’s one of my favorite scenes in the whole show.  From Avery’s little hand wave when Saunders wakes up to the “For a while back there, I almost thought that…”/”Yeah, for a moment back there, I almost did.” to Saunders’ smile, it’s an all around wonderful scene.  Just wonderful.

Also, Rip Torn is a great actor and he was wonderful in ‘Pork Chop Hill’ too and I love his Texas accent.

Eva

movie review: unbroken

Ashley is awesome and she wrote a review of “Unbroken” which is one of the most heartbreaking/uplifting stories EVER and I think ya’ll should read it. Enjoy! 🙂

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New Unbroken Poster“If I can take it, I can make it.” – Louis Zamperini, Unbroken

I’m sitting here at the kitchen table, scratching my head, and still not knowing what to say about Unbroken, more than twelve hours after I saw it.  I ended up seeing it by myself, by the way, because two of my younger siblings weren’t allowed to see it and my older sister didn’t want to see it without ClearPlay.  (I’m glad I saw it in the theater because it’s so much more real that way, but I think I’ll be seeing it with ClearPlay from now on.  Heh… heh… [Click here to read more about ClearPlay.])

Okay, I’ll just go for it.  Excuse the mess that is sure to follow.  ; )

The Story

“After a near-fatal plane crash in WWII, Olympian Louis Zamperini spends a harrowing 47 days in a raft with two fellow crewmen…

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feels about haymitch. and mockingjay. but mostly haymitch.

Several sets of arms would embrace me. But in the end, the only person I truly want to comfort me is Haymitch, because he loves Peeta, too. I reach out for him and say something like his name and he's there, holding me and patting my back. " It's okay. It'll be okay, sweetheart." He sits me on a length of broken marble pillar and keeps an arm around me while I sob. -Another Mockingjay book quote edit I have made. Again when I saw Haymitch hugging Katniss I immediately thought of this part of ...

This isn’t going to be a really long, involved post about all the reasons why Haymitch is probably my favorite Hunger Games character.  Just a short post about a feels attack I had while reading Mockingjay. (I will post something longer on this blog sometime soonish, if I can.)  I didn’t think I’d cry at all on this re-read of MJ because I know the story inside and out and I just used to it, if that makes any sense.  And I was going along fine until after the bombing of 13, when Coin wants Katniss to do another propo to show that 13’s just fine…

“Katniss, just this one line and you’re done today. I promise,” says Cressida. “‘Thirteen’s alive and well and so am I.'”

I swing my arms to loosen myself up. Place my fists on my hips. Then drop them to my sides. Saliva’s filling my mouth at a ridiculous rate and I feel vomit at the back of my throat. I swallow hard and open my lips so I can get the stupid line out and go hide in the woods and – that’s when I start crying.

It’s impossible to be the Mockingjay. Impossible to complete even this one sentence. Because now I know that everything I say will be directly taken out on Peeta. Result in his torture. But not his death, no, nothing so merciful as that. Snow will ensure that his life is much worse than death.

“Cut,” I hear Cressida say quietly.

“What’s wrong with her?” Plutarch says under his breath.

“She’s figured out how Snow’s using Peeta,” says Finnick.

There’s something like a collective sigh of regret from the semicircle of people spread out before me. Because I know this now. Because there will never be a way for me to not know this again. Because, beyond the military disadvantage losing a Mockingjay entails, I am broken.

Several sets of arms would embrace me. But in the end, the only person I truly want to comfort me is Haymitch, because he loves Peeta, too. I reach out for him and say something like his name and he’s there, holding me and patting my back. “It’s okay. It’ll be okay, sweetheart.” He sits me on a length of broken marble pillar and keeps an arm around me while I sob.

“I can’t do this anymore,” I say.

“I know,” he says.

“All I can think of is – what he’s going to do to Peeta – because I’m the Mockingjay!” I get out.

“I know.” Haymitch’s arm tightens around me.

FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELS.  HAYMITCH.  AND KATNISS CRYING.  AND HAYMITCH IS THE ONLY ONE WHO LOVES PEETA TOO.  AND HE KEPT THEM ALIVE IN THE ARENA – TWICE.  I’M JUST GOING TO GO CRY NOW.

*collapses*