feels rant: the ox-bow incident

{Yep, it’s been a while since there’ve been any posts on here besides ‘fanvid friday’ ones – which totally count, btw – so I’m here with some very ranty feels, although since it’s not about a really well known movie, I doubt anyone will reeeeally get it.  HOWEVER.  If you’ve watched TO-BI and been just as emotionally traumatized by it as I was, PLEASE comment and let me know and we can have a good, feelsy session about the whole thing.  ‘Kay?}

164.  The Ox-Bow Incident (1943)  Sheriff: God better have mercy on you. You won't get any from me.

I think this whole thing is going to be more like a bunch of mini-rants, completely disjointed, and they probably won’t make a lot of sense.  I just need to vent right now and get it all off my mind, because when you watch something a month ago and you still think about it EVERY SINGLE, STUPID DAY, it’s time to splash it all over a blog or a journal or an email.  And that’s what Ashley and Jane and I all wanted feelsy feels to be for in the first place, so it works. 🙂

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Okay, first of all, pretty much every tragic death in movies/books/TV shows happens when The Person is married.  Kids (or a kid) are a special, heartbreaking bonus.  Oh, and you get triple bonus points with whipped cream and a cherry on top if said kids are really young.  Because then the mom has to take care of them all by herself and they’ll never know their father, etc., etc.  So, yeah, having the kids be babies is really something special.  AND THAT IS EXACTLY THE SITUATION WITH THE MARTIN FAMILY.  Half of me wants to cry and the other half wants to reach through the screen and kill Tetley.  UGH.

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The members of the ‘posse’ were all complete and total idiots. (I mean, besides Davies, Gil, Sparks, Art…).  First of all, if Martin or one of the others had rustled cattle and killed Kinkaid, they wouldn’t be sleeping.  They’d be riding as hard and as fast as they could to get out of the county (or out of the state) before a posse caught up to them.  And if they DID stop, there would be at least one person left on watch. (And don’t try to tell me that they did leave someone on guard, but he fell asleep – all of three of them were snugly wrapped up and not in any position to keep a look-out.)  Mapes and Tetley and Farnley and Grier were all IDIOTS.

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Gerald Tetley didn’t whip Martin’s horse out from under him.  DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS???  I just…I don’t even want to think about it, let alone talk about it, but let me just say that there’s a reason Farnley shot him. (Twice.  Which was SO, SO uncalled for.)  I’M TEARING UP JUST THINKING ABOUT THE WHOLE THING.  If only Dana Andrews wasn’t such an amazing actor.  Then I wouldn’t care about Martin so much, which means that I wouldn’t have so many feels about the movie, which means I’D BE INFINITELY HAPPIER RIGHT ABOUT NOW.  If you’ve never watched TO-BI, DON’T DO IT.  It’ll shatter your heart, especially if you’re a fangirl, because we tend to get super emotionally involved in Things, right?

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Why on earth did Dana Andrews not get nominated for Best Supporting Actor here??? (He should’ve WON too.)

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Excuse me while I go wallow in emotions. (Not kidding.  I’ll totally go do that.)  Now, if anybody’s worried, I’m not going into major depression over this film, but whenever I think about it, it does give me a pause.  A rather sad pause, too.  I mean, just screenshots from the thing make my throat clench up and I start to feel a bit teary. (And don’t even get me started on The Letter.  Nope.  Not even going to go there.)

Eva

fanvid friday | sparkwood {cloudy with a chance of meatballs}

Flint Lockwood & Sam Sparks (Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs)

It is a truth universally acknowledged that Flint and Sam(antha) are just about the most adorable couple in the history of animated movies.  He’s dorky and smart and she’s dorky and smart and they’re perfectly suited for each other and they have an absolutely darling relationship that gets even better in the second movie.  Unfortunately, I haven’t been able to find too many fan-videos centered around them, but I’ll share my favorite one, at least. 🙂

ARE THEY NOT THE CUTEST?

Eva

little {fandom} things: saints & soldiers

{I know, at the moment, this film doesn’t really have a fandom, but Ashley and I are setting out to change that.  Enjoy!}

~hot lemonade

~all the feelsy parts (so, basically the whole movie)

~Deacon and Gunderson’s AWESOME friendship

~Gunderson + Katrine (I totally ship them)

~Deacon.  Every single thing about him.

~secrets

~how Rudi helped Our Guys get away

~Gould’s journey as a character

~Winley and Kendrick (those two…)

~tinfoil

~the first scene…all those dogtags… *cries*

~”I never miss…”

~nobody being able to read the code but Winley

~yes, the Germans would really try a push with just one jeep (*sarcasm*)

~HEROES

Eva

fanvid friday | combat! ‘letters from home’

I love all of OneTrueDoc’s Combat! music videos, and this one is no exception.  Unlike her character fan vids, this one focuses on the whole squad, which is lovely, and the whole thing is SO BEAUTIFUL AND PERFECT. *hugs fan video*  And it makes me tear up, although I’m not exactly sure why, because it’s not really sad…do you ever gets Feels from perfect awesomeness?  I don’t really know how to explain it, but I get that kind all. the. time. (Combat! simply seems to breed them.)  Anyway, enjoy the fan video! (It’s spoiler free, Ashley. :))

Eva

fanvid friday | saints & soldiers

*takes Ashley by the shoulders*

*looks deep into her eyes*

“Don’t. EVER. Watch. This. Movie.”

(jk.)

(kind of.)

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Who knew that there was a whole sub-fandom for Saints & Soldiers (I say sub-fandom, because as far as I know, there isn’t a ‘real’ fandom for the film) that was dedicated to making absolutely heartbreaking fan-videos?  Certainly not me.  Until yesterday, I was blissfully ignorant of the fact, and then I was browsing Youtube when I stumbled across one of them…and then another and another and another, until I was so overloaded on feels it wasn’t even funny.  So, naturally, I thought I’d share a couple for today fan-vid post, because FEEEEEEEEEELS.  The whole movie is devastatingly heartbreaking to begin with, and then put a bunch of the feelsiest clips to songs and, well, I was a wreck.  (Ashley, when you watch this movie, YOU WILL NEVER, EVER RECOVER END OF STORY.)

(Warning: The following fan-videos contain major spoilers.  For more information on the movie, check out my spoiler-free review.)

I don’t care for this song – too much…modernity? – so it limits the amount of times I watch this fan-video (note: most fan-video music is pretty much the farthest thing from my style of music, but if the video is well done, I’ll give it a shot), but that’s probably a good thing because it’s-it’s-  I CAN’T EVEN DESCRIBE ALL MY FEELINGS RIGHT NOW. (Doesn’t help that I watched a TWS fan-video set to the same song, which was uber-feelsy.)  Especially the lyric “I need to let you go” paired with THAT CERTAIN CHARACTER’S DEATH AND WHY CAN’T DEACON EVER HAVE ANY HAPPINESS IN HIS LIFE FOR GOODNESS’ SAKE.

Excuse me while I go drown my sorrows in a bowl of chocolate ice cream (the fangirl’s life line).  Again, I’ve watched a fan-video that used the same song that’s in this one (actually, that Combat! one that I shared in my post about Doc), and it HURTS SO. MUCH.  Deacon just…I just…I CAN’T EVEN.  ESPECIALLY SINCE HE’S MARRIED AND HIS WIFE’S EXPECTING A BABY WHICH IS AWFUL, PLUS HIS BACKSTORY AND IT’S AWFUL.  Ahem.  Sorry about that, Chief. (Bonus points if you understood that reference.)  But, anyway, “Sound The Bugle” fits Deacon’s character perfectly.  Soooo perfectly. (In a heartwrenching way, of course, because there’s no other way you can view Saints & Soldiers, and Deacon especially.)

ACK.  The whole thing is terrible and emotional and I-don’t-know-why-I-watched-this-in-the-first-place-ish.

So you’ll have to forgive me if my rantings are barely intelligible – that’s just the way I feel right now.

Until next time,

Eva

P.S. Ashley, if you really want to watch some clips, there are a couple of non-spoiler ones on Youtube.  I don’t know how much sense they’ll make, out of context, but you’ll get a feel for the tone and mood and characters and Feelz.  First clip is here, second clip is here. (And after you’ve watched the film, they’ll both be a million times more feelsy.)

the awesomeness that is AVERY

{This post will not make any sense whatsoever to anyone who’s not watched Combat! and, specifically, the episode “A Gift Of Hope”.  However, Ashley and Jane are still both away/busy so this is MY blog [muahahahahaha…] for right now, and this is what I wanted to post, so I’m doing it.}

{Also, this will be more of a mini-theawesomenessthatis post because Avery is only in one episode.  Still, he makes a powerful impression.}

“If you lose yourself, your courage soon will follow.  So be strong tonight…remember who you are.” ~lyrics from “Sound The Bugle”

Avery is a paradox for me.

Normally, I dislike (or, at the very least, feel an annoyance for) authority figures in war movies who do a lot of shouting at the men under them, ordering them around, and generally behaving like jerks.  (I also tend not to really like characters on Combat! who crack up under pressure, but I’ll get to that a little later.)  And, yet, I fell in love with Avery (in the ‘this is just a fictional character’ sense, of course).  I will admit that it took a couple viewings of “A Gift Of Hope” for my liking for him to fully come together, but now I like him just as much as all the show’s regulars.  I believe the reason I still really liked Avery was because he’s not just an overbearing platoon sergeant.  Or just a guy who breaks under the strain of war – and a gift of hope.

Really, it’s surprising just how much characterization Avery gets in an episode that’s less than an hour long.  We see him go from rough-and-tough platoon sergeant (who, I’ve got to say, does looks out for the New Guys very, very well) to a suspected deserter to a man cracking under pressure to someone who Saunders hardly recognizes (as Avery prepares to really desert) and then back to how we see him in Kirby’s flashback.  Avery’s character is shown to us bit by bit, layer by layer, until by the end of the episode, you really feel like you know him.  And…you do.  Avery is a deep, true, real character and I love that.

Avery is my favorite.  Also, Rip Torn is now one my most favorite actors of all time.

There’s something about Avery that’s just so cool.  I know it’s horrid slang to be using for the kind of person he is, but it’s true.  Mainly in Kirby’s flashback.  Everything from his helmet – it’s great, it’s so unique – to the way the words keep flying out of his mouth (alternately scolding and encouraging the new replacements), to the whole name/place thing…he’s so cool.  He really cares about the men under him, as shown perfectly by one of trademarks, that I unimaginatively call ‘the name/place thing’.  Consider…

Avery: “Batally (sp?), where’re you from?”
Batally: “Madison.  Wisconsin.”
Avery:  “Oh, yeah?  That’s a great town, I used to work there once.”
Batally:  “Yeah…”
Avery: “Had a wild little bar downtown, what’s the name of it?  Used to hang out there.”
Batally: “Uh…Angelo’s?  Third Street?”
Avery: “Yeah, that’s the one.”
Batally: *laughs a little*

Saunders: “Madison, Wisconsin.  You worked there, huh?”
Avery: “Well, sometimes maybe it helps to think that somebody knows your name, where you’re from.”

Plus, Avery’s the only person I know who can be on the receiving end of a Saunders’ Look and respond with a, “Well don’t look at me like that, Saunders.”  And that’s way. too. awesome. in and of itself. (Admittedly, the Look wasn’t one of Saunders Glares, but still…)

Speaking of Avery and Saunders, one thing that strikes me about him the most is how close he and Saunders are.  Saunders isn’t one to give his friendship like that to just anyone, and Avery really has his trust.  He’s been through North Africa and Italy and Sicily just like Saunders, which leads me to believe that perhaps Avery and Saunders knew each other before D-Day. That personal headcanon of mine makes what Saunders says about about “I never thought I’d want to see you dead” all the more heartwrenching. (On a slightly unrelated note, I love how the beginning of the episode dumps us right into the action without any real point of reference – we have no clue who this Avery guy is.  It feels very immediate and natural.)  

And I also like what White Queen has to say about the two of them in her review of the episode

Avery in the first flashback makes me grin — he’s being such a stereotypical sergeant, all loud and bossy. Saunders gives him a series of, “Do you have to do this?” looks. They’re like flip sides of the same coin, those two. Saunders is normally all into helping people over rough spots, but he can get loud and bossy when he needs to, and Avery’s the exact opposite. I dig it.

So after convincing Saunders that he didn’t run, he didn’t desert, Avery strikes out on a quest (dun-dun-DUN) with Saunders to clear his name.  They go back up to the front (much to Hanley’s mystification) and it’s while disabling a mine and walking through places that have shells falling pretty close in, that Saunders begins to see that, while Avery might not have deserted, he’s lost his nerve.  The climax of the episode comes when, after killing off a machine gun next of Germans singlehandedly, Saunders looks over to see Avery crying, completely shattered.

M'kay.  Let me talk about this scene for a sec.  Or, more specifically, the MUSIC in this scene.  Most of them time whenever an ENG or basically anyone besides a regular cracks up/loses their nerve, there's really scary/jittery music in the background.  But when in THIS scene, what is playing?  The C! theme, soft and quiet.  Makes me cry EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.

Oh, man.  That part always, always gets to me in hugely emotional way.  See, I’m the kind of person who notices the minutiae of music in films and TV shows.  I’ll listen for repeated musical themes (or even just notes) and tie in the fact that “OH MY GOODNESS THEY RE-USED THE SAME THEME FROM THAT SCENE FOR THIS SCENE IT MUST MEAN SOMETHING”.  I sometimes go a little overboard, but I can’t help it.  It’s just something I notice.  And, usually, whenever a character breaks up/loses their nerve on Combat!, the music is all moody/jittery/scary – total mood music.  But you know what they decided to play during that little bit of Avery just before the dramatic commercial break.  The theme tune, played slow and low.

THE THEME TUNE, PLAYED SLOW AND LOW.

Immediately, it gives Avery a distinction (in my mind) from all the other random guys who lose their nerve.  The whole thing is more respectful, in a way, and that’s what I love about it.  Plus, when the theme’s played like that, it’s sort of achingly beautiful.  So I cry a lot.

And the way Avery comes back around?  Perfect.  Absolutely perfect.  He’s leaving for good, going off to desert, even after Saunders told/asked him not to.  So he’s walking away, all firm and determined, when a group of young (verrry young) GIs call out to him and ask him, in so many words, if he can direct them to King Company. (Let me just say that the way Avery says – of King Company – “Yeah, that’s a good outfit” always makes me smile.)  No, he can’t, he’s being sent back to the States, etc, etc.  And then…and then… (I WILL NOT CRY.  I WILL NOT CRY.  I WILL NOT CRY.)

GI #1: “Hey, Sarge, did you ever see any of those new Kraut tanks?”
GI #2: “You know, the ones with the flamethrowers?  We heard they burned out a whole company from the 23rd.”
Avery: “Who told you that?”
GI #3: “Well, everybody knows it.”
Avery: “Well I don’t know it.  And if they haven’t thrown it at me, they ain’t got it.” [brief note: right after he says the above, you can see him thinking, kind of like “Should I walk away or keep talking?” and it’s amazing acting on Rip Torn’s part]  “You stop listenin’ to all that garbage, you hear me?  Learn to count on yourself.  There ain’t gonna be anyone up there to boost you over the rough spots, you gotta realize that…what’s your name?”
GI #2 (I think): “Pittinger.”
Avery: “Where’re you from?”
GI #2: “Tacomba.  Tacomba, Washington.”
Avery: “Yeah, I used to work up there.  Spent a lot of time in a real wild little bar downtown on the main drag.”
GI #2: “Tony’s!”
Avery: “Yeah, that’s the place.  I used to have some real wild times there…”

*melts into a puddle of feels*

Anyway.

They could’ve ended the episode there, and it would have been practically perfect, but they added in the greatest little tag scene with Saunders and Avery that’s one of my favorite scenes in the whole show.  From Avery’s little hand wave when Saunders wakes up to the “For a while back there, I almost thought that…”/”Yeah, for a moment back there, I almost did.” to Saunders’ smile, it’s an all around wonderful scene.  Just wonderful.

Also, Rip Torn is a great actor and he was wonderful in ‘Pork Chop Hill’ too and I love his Texas accent.

Eva

movie review: unbroken

Ashley is awesome and she wrote a review of “Unbroken” which is one of the most heartbreaking/uplifting stories EVER and I think ya’ll should read it. Enjoy! 🙂

inklings press

New Unbroken Poster“If I can take it, I can make it.” – Louis Zamperini, Unbroken

I’m sitting here at the kitchen table, scratching my head, and still not knowing what to say about Unbroken, more than twelve hours after I saw it.  I ended up seeing it by myself, by the way, because two of my younger siblings weren’t allowed to see it and my older sister didn’t want to see it without ClearPlay.  (I’m glad I saw it in the theater because it’s so much more real that way, but I think I’ll be seeing it with ClearPlay from now on.  Heh… heh… [Click here to read more about ClearPlay.])

Okay, I’ll just go for it.  Excuse the mess that is sure to follow.  ; )

The Story

“After a near-fatal plane crash in WWII, Olympian Louis Zamperini spends a harrowing 47 days in a raft with two fellow crewmen…

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feels about haymitch. and mockingjay. but mostly haymitch.

Several sets of arms would embrace me. But in the end, the only person I truly want to comfort me is Haymitch, because he loves Peeta, too. I reach out for him and say something like his name and he's there, holding me and patting my back. " It's okay. It'll be okay, sweetheart." He sits me on a length of broken marble pillar and keeps an arm around me while I sob. -Another Mockingjay book quote edit I have made. Again when I saw Haymitch hugging Katniss I immediately thought of this part of ...

This isn’t going to be a really long, involved post about all the reasons why Haymitch is probably my favorite Hunger Games character.  Just a short post about a feels attack I had while reading Mockingjay. (I will post something longer on this blog sometime soonish, if I can.)  I didn’t think I’d cry at all on this re-read of MJ because I know the story inside and out and I just used to it, if that makes any sense.  And I was going along fine until after the bombing of 13, when Coin wants Katniss to do another propo to show that 13’s just fine…

“Katniss, just this one line and you’re done today. I promise,” says Cressida. “‘Thirteen’s alive and well and so am I.'”

I swing my arms to loosen myself up. Place my fists on my hips. Then drop them to my sides. Saliva’s filling my mouth at a ridiculous rate and I feel vomit at the back of my throat. I swallow hard and open my lips so I can get the stupid line out and go hide in the woods and – that’s when I start crying.

It’s impossible to be the Mockingjay. Impossible to complete even this one sentence. Because now I know that everything I say will be directly taken out on Peeta. Result in his torture. But not his death, no, nothing so merciful as that. Snow will ensure that his life is much worse than death.

“Cut,” I hear Cressida say quietly.

“What’s wrong with her?” Plutarch says under his breath.

“She’s figured out how Snow’s using Peeta,” says Finnick.

There’s something like a collective sigh of regret from the semicircle of people spread out before me. Because I know this now. Because there will never be a way for me to not know this again. Because, beyond the military disadvantage losing a Mockingjay entails, I am broken.

Several sets of arms would embrace me. But in the end, the only person I truly want to comfort me is Haymitch, because he loves Peeta, too. I reach out for him and say something like his name and he’s there, holding me and patting my back. “It’s okay. It’ll be okay, sweetheart.” He sits me on a length of broken marble pillar and keeps an arm around me while I sob.

“I can’t do this anymore,” I say.

“I know,” he says.

“All I can think of is – what he’s going to do to Peeta – because I’m the Mockingjay!” I get out.

“I know.” Haymitch’s arm tightens around me.

FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELS.  HAYMITCH.  AND KATNISS CRYING.  AND HAYMITCH IS THE ONLY ONE WHO LOVES PEETA TOO.  AND HE KEPT THEM ALIVE IN THE ARENA – TWICE.  I’M JUST GOING TO GO CRY NOW.

*collapses*

“we’ll follow the old man wherever he wants to go…”

(UGGGGGH.  I’m tearing up just re-reading the title of this post.)

A few days ago, I watched White Christmas for the second time in seven years.  Approximately seven years ago, I was having a sleepover with all my other siblings at my grandparents’ house, and once all my brothers or sisters were asleep, Grandma came downstairs and asked me if I wanted to watch a movie just with her and Grandpa.  Of course I said yes. 😀  And White Christmas was the movie we watched.  It was so long ago that I don’t remember any of my reaction to it, just that I had indeed seen it before when Mom brought it up (this being the Christmas time of year and all).  Actually, she just suggested that one of my sisters and I learn how to sing “Sisters” together and I asked where that song was from, she told me, and after I got to thinking about the little bits and pieces I remembered about the movie, I went out and got it from the library.

Because, from what I remembered, it was nearly everything I liked in a movie.  Old movie musical?  Check.  Lots of dancing and singing?  Check.  WWII/soldiers?  Check.  Famous old movie stars?  Check.  Yep, I was pretty sure I would love White Christmas.  My sister (the same one who’s going to sing “Sisters” with me…sometime), was pretty excited about it too.  Soooo…we started it.  And as soon as all the soldiers started singing for General Waverly, the ending of the film rushed back to me.  I turned to my mom and said “I’m going to cry at the end of this.”  To which she replied, “I’m already crying.”  Hoo boy.  I should’ve known right then and there the onslaught of Feels (with a capital ‘F’) was going to be tremendous.  And if I’d thought that then, I wouldn’t have been wrong.

:)

There were some Feelings during the whole fake engagement and Betty leaving thing because all I could think of was “What’s it going to be like when Elisabeth or I get engaged/married?” (alá Anne Shirley) but the biggest thing was, like I’d thought, the ending.  I haven’t cried so much/so hard during a movie for a loooong time – I’d actually kind of forgotten what it was like to cry for a movie at the level of, say, Les Miserables or BBC’s Robin Hood.  It was so emotional! (in a happy way)  And I don’t really want to give spoilers, in case some people reading this haven’t watched the movie (YOU SHOULD, THOUGH), but you’ll probably cry too.  White Christmas is definitely a film like Saving Mr Banks, in that I tear up just thinking about certain parts.

Oh, well.  Sad is happy for deep people.

Eva

random ‘combat!’ post

I know I’ve been doing all the posts lately.  Ashley/Eowyn and Jane are around here – they’re just pretty busy.  Anyway, I don’t mind writing up posts for this blog, even if most of them are kind of spur-of-the-moment.  A new movie trailer, a quick book review, or, in the case of this post, something really quick just to vent some feels.  Happy, warm, fuzzy feels this time. (I’m going to do a post eventually about the different types of feels, btw)  I was watching ‘The Little Carousel’ last night, and there was a scene that just really made my day.  As in “THOSE ARE MY BOYS BEING AWESOME AND SUCH GOOD FRIENDS I LOVE THIS SHOW SO MUCH” made my day.

Basic backstory: The Squad is checking out a French town to make sure it’s safe for the townspeople to come back.  Annnd, that’s about it.  Hanley’s in his temporary CP.  He needs to see Saunders.  And then THIS conversation happens…

Saunders: “What’s it look like, lieutenant?”
Hanley: “Good and bad.  Our artillery smothered the Kraut guns.”
Saunders: “And the bad?”
Hanley: “German infantry may be moving up in the woods, north side of town.”
Saunders: “How big a unit?”
Hanley: “Company doesn’t know.  It’s French civilian info.  Captain Jampel wants us to check it out.  Send Caje and four men.  They move out in half an hour.”
Saunders: “I’ll go, lieutenant.”
Hanley: “You’re bushed.”
Saunders: “I rested.” [note from Eva: at this point, Hanley gives him a “oh, really?” look and it’s great]
Hanley: “All right.  Now, this Kraut move may be anything – small harassment, pretty good size push, a feint to pull us off our left flank.  Don’t engage the enemy unless it’s a small patrol you think you can handle.  Soon as you make contact, radio back.”
Saunders: “Anything else?”
Hanley:  “Yeah….take care of yourself.”
Saunders: “Always.”

I LOVE IT SO MUCH.

I paused the episode right there and my sister and I were both fangirling in a rather insane way. 😀

Eva

six new unbroken clips!

I love this collage! @inklingspress

AKA ‘Prelude To Dying From Excessive Amounts Of Feelings’.

Seriously.

Ashley and I are going to be all “We’re gonna die out here!”  And our parents/siblings are going to be all “You’re not dying!!!”

(get it????  UNDERSTAND ALL THE REFERENCES, PEOPLES)

Anywho.  SIX. NEW. CLIPS.  ARE YOU KIDDING ME???  I’VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS FOR MONTHS.  Now, I’m not naive.  They’ve probably chopped parts out of the already small clips, but it’s wayyyy better than nothing.  I’m just saying that we’ll have to wait until the movie comes out to see the scenes in their full glory.  Probably.  From what I can see, this film is going to be visually stunning.  Each clip was a pleasure to watch, just from an aesthetic point of view.  Lemme give you my thoughts on each clip…

  • ‘Pete Sees Louie Off’ (note to self: it’s LouiE, not LouiS) – Um.  Already, I’m crying.  And speechless.  And completely loaded down with the sheer amazingness of what this film’s going to be.  Without Pete, there wouldn’t be a story, and I LOVE how his and Louie’s relationship shines through in this little snippet.  LOVE LOVE LOVE IT.
  • ‘Berlin Olympics’ – This post is going to end up sounding like a broken record.  Again, I’m completely blown away by these clips.  The way it flips back and forth between Louie racing and the Zamperinis listening in on the radio made me smile.  Pete’s little “C’mon, Louie” and everyone speaking Italian and Louise half-crying…GAH.  Why did they have to cut it off???
  • ‘Flag Down A Passing Plane’ – Intense.  So. Intense.  I don’t know if my brain is going to be able to handle this movie.  The plane!  The sharks!  The water!  EVERYTHING!
  • ‘The Bird’ – Miyavi is amazing as the Bird.  I mean, he captured the twisted personality and evil/wrong presence of the Bird perfectly.  I wouldn’t be surprised if he gets an Oscar nomination for Best Supporting Actor.  He’s that good.  The way he kind of smiles when he says “Look at me” is…wow.  Chill-worthy, in a creepy way.
  • ‘Japanese Radio Men’ – This is the clip that really struck me with how visual this movie is.  The camera angles, the lighting, the glimpse of prisoners being marched away through a smudged window…I love the style of Unbroken already.  Again, Miyavi/the Bird is chilling and slightly insane and I’m cringing just thinking of everything that comes after this.  Including Louie’s letter home because I know I’m going to be majorly crying.
  • ‘Beat Their Captors’ – Two words: John Fitzgerald.  He’s got to be in my top three favorite characters (although picking favorite characters is extremely hard when it comes to Unbroken) and he’s awesome in this clip.  Quiet encouragement and just….I have endless amounts of admiration for Fitzgerald.  He did pretty much anything he had to so that the other prisoners would be safe (safer?) and in the end, when the camp was liberated, he refused to leave until all the sick POWs had been taken out.  Refused to leave.  I mean.  I just.  HOW HUGE IS THAT?

If you need me, I’ll just be an incoherent puddle of tears.

Eva

my CURRENT feels triggers: eva

So, awhile back, I posted about feels triggers. (as did Eowyn and Jane)  Those things I posted about still give me feels on a regular basis, but I’m always gaining new fandoms, latching onto new things, so what gives me major attacks of feels one day may not influence me so much the next.  Anyway, I’m going to talk about the things that currently have me all semi-depressed and feelsy on a regular basis. (I don’t know if Eowyn or Jane’ll be doing these posts as well – I just put my name in the post title so you wouldn’t have to wait till the very end of the post to figure out who exactly’s writing :))

  • Combat! – FEEEEEEEEEELS.  EVERYWHERE.  Ugh.  There’s too much I could say about this show and I won’t dump all that on you, but I’ll just say…be warned.  Don’t even think about watching any episodes unless you’re absolutely sure you want the whole thing to break your heart and crush your soul.  It’s not all doom and depression and hopelessness, but there’s enough to make a ‘sad is happy for deep people’ person, well, happy.  I recommend watching ‘Hills Are For Heroes’, ‘The Hostages’, ‘Glow Against The Sky’, ‘Bridgehead’, and ‘Survival’ if you want to enter the…interesting world of Combat! feels. (at least for starters)  And if you want happiness, watch ‘The Town That Went Away’, ‘The Party’, and ‘The Prisoner’.  Simple as that.
  • Unbroken – As Eowyn and I have discussed, ‘feels’ is too petty of a word to describe what I feel toward Unbroken.  For one thing, it’s a true story.  An amazing true story about, among other things, how God can work behind-the-scenes and turn a life around for His glory.  From what I’ve heard of the film, Angelina Jolie barely touched on Louis’ conversion, which I think is a crying shame.  If he hadn’t gotten saved, there wouldn’t be a story.  So read the book before you watch the film.  But, again, be warned.  It will consume your EVERYTHING. (check out my review of Unbroken here)
  • Songs In The Night (series) – Oh, man.  This series is just…amazing and intense and practically perfect in every way.  I’ve read it several times (in the middle of re-reading it right now) and it never gets old.  I’ve got the stories memorized (basically), I know the characters so well that they’re almost like close friends, and the stupid thing never fails to make me cry.  REALLY cry.  Several times.  I CAN’T EVEN WITH THESE BOOKS.  No-one besides my mom has read all three (and she read them a pretty long time ago), so I kind of feel like it’s my own, personal little thing that I don’t want anyone else to discover.  Does that make sense?  Probably not, but it’s how I feel. (check out my review of the second book, His Watchful Eye, here)
  • Saints And Soldiers – I key-smashed about all my feels for this movie in my review, so I won’t reiterate all of that.  Short version: this film is near perfection for a fangirl – super feelsy, awesome characters, interesting story.  If you’re a fan of war movies, you’ll love it.
  • WWII In General – That’s how I roll these days.  Everyone else is freaking out over Mockingjay Part 1 and I’m just sitting here with my super-obscure fandoms and no-one to share The Feelz with. *sigh* (not that I mind all THAT much)

Eva

P.S. Eowyn and I have decided between ourselves to make the ‘the awesomeness that is…’ posts a semi-regular thing.  Both guy and girl characters if at all possible.  Just a little news flash there 🙂

the awesomeness that is DOC

“Sometimes people are beautiful. Not in looks. Not in what they say. Just in what they are.” ~Markus Zusak, I Am The Messenger

Oh, man. This quote. This quote so perfectly sums up Doc’s character. I have so many feels about it. See, in the last post I did that was a character study (about Dietrich), I had a quote at the very top of the post, so I thought I should have one for Doc. I was running through the list of awesome quotes I keep catalogued up in my head, despairing of ever finding a good one, and then I remembered something I’d pinned to my Book Thief Pinterest board (yes, yes, I know the quote’s from Messenger – so sue me) and from what I could remember, it was perfect. So I looked it up. And it was.

*re-reads quote* *squees at the awesomeness*

Let me give you a little background on the show, Combat!, first. Still holding the title of longest running TV show about WWII ever, Combat! ran for five seasons and delved into many issues of war and friendship. It’s my favorite thing, my current fandom, and I can’t watch enough of it to suit me. Combat! chronicles the adventures of a squad (and their Lieutenant) fighting their way through France after D-Day. There are hardly any references to historical battles or important people like Patton or Churchill, just episode after episode about the struggles and trials of the main characters. (and, boy, do they go through a lot of struggles and trials) It may not sound all that interesting, but believe me, it is. And the characters wrap themselves so tightly around your heart that it’s crazy. I really could do a character study on each and every one (and maybe I will someday), but for now, I’m focusing on Doc.

Doc TWO, to be exact. Doc ONE has zero personality, zero competence rating, and zero courage. Seriously. Thankfully, he’s only in season one, and we get Doc2 (or GOOD Doc, or just Doc, like it’s going to be through this whole post) for all the other seasons. Awesome, right? Well, it might not make any impression on you right now (I’m looking at YOU, Ashley ;)), but once I’m done this post, it will. Or once you watch the show. I recommend you watch the show first, actually, because this post is going to have spoilers and reading spoilers for Combat! would be a terrible injustice. So go watch the whole show and then come back and read this. It’ll keep. (btw, even I haven’t watched every episode yet, so I might not cover everything about Doc in this post…but don’t worry. If I don’t, I’ll just write a follow-up.)

You back? Good. Let’s get into the post.

There are so many reasons to love Doc. So. Many. I couldn’t list them all if I tried, but even so, this is going to be a very long post. I have several points I want to cover, so without further ado, let’s get to them, shall we?

First of all, there’s Conlan Carter, the guy who portrays Doc. I don’t make it a policy of idolizing actors and actresses, and I’m not going to start now, but he brought so much to the role of Doc. For one, when he found out through his agent that he’d landed the role, he went out and took some classes in bandaging wounds and taking pulses, stuff like that, so he’d look comfortable/accurate whenever his character had to patch someone up. And just to give you an idea of how good his acting abilities are, he was the only actor in the show who was nominated for an Emmy (besides Vic Morrow for the episode ‘Survival’). (and my sister and I agree that Conlan Carter and Vic Morrow are the two very best actors in this show) That was for the episode ‘The Hostages’, and he totally deserved to win as well. But getting nominated is pretty big as well. I’ll be talking about ‘The Hostages’ a little later on, because it really is the ultimate episode for Doc fans.

Oh, and I just plain love his voice. That Southern accent… ❤

(fun fact: even though Doc2 didn’t make an appearance until season two, Conlan Carter played two different, small parts in season one: an MP in ‘Hill 256’ and a German soldier in ‘Survival’.)

Now that I’ve talked a little bit about Conlan Carter, I will devote the rest of this post to Doc. It’s going to be long. And full of gushy fangirling. And quotes. And feels. And pictures. But, hey, this blog was specifically created for word vomiting about feels and fandoms, so I don’t feel the least bit guilty about this outrageously long post. And Ashley will back me up on that. (still, if you’re not a Combat! fan, most of this will probably go over your head)

“Sarge, there’s a wounded man out there and he needs this. [some morphine, I believe]  And if I don’t try to get it to him, well, there’s no point in me being here, is there?”

Unfortunately, I don’t know the episode where that quote comes from (got the quote from a clip in a fan-video, actually – one I’ll share at the end of this post), since I haven’t watched them all, but that’s a loose summation of Doc’s character. He’s fiercely dedicated to saving lives (which makes the ending of ‘The Hostages’ – which I’ll get to soon – all the more heartbreaking), even at the risk of his own, and he’ll do whatever it takes to get aid to the wounded. One moment that sticks out more than others in my mind is in the episode ‘The First Day’. The entire squad is pinned down by machine gun fire, Caje is wounded and several yards away from the rest of the squad, and Doc insists on going out to help him, even though Saunders warns him not to. Bullets are flying everywhere, and Doc still goes out to help Caje. I had to pause the video for a moment and just…breathe. Because that moment was amazing and powerful and exactly what Doc is like.

“Caje is hit.  Maybe Tobin and Lomas too.  I’m going.”

He runs out under heavy fire, under shelling, even, to get soldiers the help they desperately need. Doc is brave. There’s a moment in ‘Hills Are For Heroes’, right at the beginning, when one of the soldiers going up the hill gets wounded in the face and Doc runs over and shields him from the killing fire coming from the German pillboxes. Bullets are peppering the ground all around both of them, but he doesn’t run away until he’s bandaged up the guy’s face and dragged him to safety. Or in ‘The Long Way Home’, when he’s being interrogated. A friend of mine, who loves Combat!, sums it up well in her episode review of TLWH (read the full thing here).

Doc looks so scared as Steiner questions him. And yet so calm. Watch him jump when Steiner whaps him on the arm with that evil riding crop. But he’s gutsy enough to tell his little Halloween story — and it’s a great story. I think it kinda shakes Steiner up — he can’t come up with a snappy retort. He just says, “I’ll think about it… while you think about it.” Lame!

Go Doc!

Of course, with all the times he goes out under fire to save lives, it would be unrealistic if he never got wounded.  Believe me, he does.  Not as much as the others, because he doesn’t take all the risks they do – sneaking around German OPs and running up hills five times under heavy fire, etc, etc. – but he does get shot a few times.  And whenever that happens, all I can think is “It’s so unfair.”  None of them deserve to be wounded, but especially not Doc. (and not Billy, but that’s a discussion for another day)  So it’s always awful when he gets hurt.

"I won't let you shoot a man in cold blood!"

Returning to the topic of Doc’s bravery, there’s one episode that sticks out the most when it comes to portraying it.  ‘The Hostages’.  I watched this episode for the first time just a couple of weeks ago and was absolutely blown away by it all.  The acting, the plot, the ending.  And through the whole thing, Doc showed amazing courage.  To put it in a nutshell, a sadistic German officer is holding Caje and Saunders hostage while Doc goes out and gets a truck that the German guy and his aide can escape in.  Only they take Doc and the others with them once they have the truck…to clear a path through a minefield.  Most of the episodes focuses on Doc’s attempt to get a truck.  Through the entire thing, you can almost feel the different emotions and questions running through Doc’s mind.  Kill the German officer?  Let his friends die to keep blood off his own hands?  On and on the moral dilemma goes until he finally acts.  And that’s one spoiler you won’t get out of me.  Just let me say…it was intense.  And I cried.

Well, I will give you another, potentially spoilery quote from my friend, because it really is great. (read the whole thing here)

This whole episode is really a fascinating character study about a man who’s sworn not to kill or do violence who is forced with the choice of either breaking that vow or seeing people he cares about get killed. The tension inside Doc mounts ever higher throughout the episode until finally he is forced to do something he probably thought he would never do. I really wish this ep had either a sequel or a longer denouement, so we could see more about Doc coming to grips with what he’s done. Saunders does the best he can, with his plea for help with his wound, but I don’t think Doc’s going to be brought back to normal quite that easily.

Ugggggggh.  Here come the feels.

Anyway.

Another thing I love about Doc is how he isn’t afraid to speak his mind. (side note: Doc1 was afraid of his own shadow.  It wasn’t attractive.)  In ‘The Hostages’, he demands to know where Aptmeyer (the German officer) is taking him and Saunders and Caje.  He really stood up to the guy and was pretty firm about having to know. (Aptmeyer lies to him though, as I’m sure he realized.  Still, it took guts to stand up to that creep.)  It was one of my favorite parts in the episode, actually, because he just…*covers face with hands*  Awesome.  So. Awesome.

But the example above isn’t the only time Doc has stood out and spoken up.  There are a couple of times in ‘Hills Are For Heroes’ that I remember well and one in particular – when Saunders has been wounded and Hanley comes in to see how he’s doing.

Hanley: “How is it?”
Saunders: “It’s not too bad, Lieutenant.”
Doc: “Don’t pay any attention to him, Lieutenant.  He’s got a whole area you could lose a grenade in.”
*Doc brings over some morphine*
Saunders: “No, Doc, forget it.  My leg doesn’t hurt that much.”
Doc: “Yeah, I’ll bet it doesn’t.”
Saunders: “I don’t want it.  Not till we get what we came for.  I’m not going to be any good asleep.”
Hanley: “May be quite a while before we get what we came for.”
Doc: “Well then you oughta take the shot.”
Saunders: “No, Doc, I don’t want it.”

Saunders can be stubborn too. 🙂  Just saying.  But Doc’s usually just as stubborn when it comes to getting men the medical care they need.  He doesn’t end up giving Saunders the morphine, but you can just SEE that he wants to.  Same as all the times there’s a wounded man on the field and he can’t get to them or there’s a wounded man and he doesn’t have his aid bag.  There’s an urge inside of him to help people, and when he can’t act on it, it’s one of the worst things.  That’s partly why when he said something in ‘The First Day’ about “I just try to keep people alive until we can get them to a real doctor” I was all like “You ARE a real doctor!”  I mean, he doesn’t have a medical degree or anything that fancy, he wasn’t even a doctor before the war, but he has the heart for it.  And he’s actually pretty competent.

Rabbit trail there.  Back to Doc speaking up and making himself heard when there’s something to be said.

My absolute favorite example of this is in the episode ‘Bridgehead’.  It’s one of my favorite episodes to begin with – one with all the squad, lots of epic fighting, touching moments….just an overall great episode.  In it, Littlejohn accidentally kills one of his friends with a bunch of grenades (yeah, ‘accidentally’ and ‘a bunch of grenades’ don’t seem to belong in the same sentence, but in this case, they do) and is really eaten up with guilt.  He gets wounded and Doc takes him back to headquarters, or whatever they call it, and Hanley’s there. (oh, and the entire squad’s being chewed to pieces by enemy fire all this time)  After listening to Littlejohn’s guilt and anger and anguish, Doc snaps. (not in a crazy, insane way – in an angry way)  And it’s awesome, albeit heartbreaking and totally feelsy in every way.

*Doc rips off his medic’s armband and tries to leave the room*
Hanley: “Now where do you think you’re going?”
Doc: “I want a rifle.”
Hanley: “You what?”
Doc: “I want to get in this shooting war.  I want a rifle.  Now I have had it up to
here with bandages and aspirin.  I want a rifle!”
Hanley: “Now you know that’s impossible.”
Doc: “Why?  Because of the rules?  I don’t shoot anybody, nobody shoots me?  We’re so civilized, we’ve even got rules to kill each other by.  Boy, that’s what I call organization!”
Hanley:  “Well don’t knock it.  Organization got us this far, all the way from Normandy.  Now he does his job, I do mine, and you do yours.”
Doc: “That’s fine, lieutenant.  But I’m beginning to think I’m going to be all by myself when this thing’s over.  Now the killing is getting way ahead of the fixing!”
Hanley: “Alright.  Now maybe we’ll all be dead before this thing is over.  But it won’t be because we quit halfway through to hold a coffee clutch.  Now we forget our jobs – you, me, him, the boys outside – and we’ll be dead that much sooner.  You read me?”
Doc: “Yes, sir.  I read you.”

Another quality of Doc’s that I admire is his peacemaker tendencies.  He always tries to smooth things over with the squad and keep the peace.  I think Saunders appreciates that about him, because if the squad is torn apart by fighting and bickering, how can any of them ever depend on each other?  This is actually shown really well in ‘Conflict’, an episode where Caje and Littlejohn are at each other’s throats for most of it.  Doc tries a gentler approach first, mostly observing the arguing and offering advice, but when that doesn’t work, he really lays into both of them (and this could go with the ‘says what needs to be said’ thing as well), calling them little kids and making them think, really think about what they’re doing.

Doc: “You guys oughta feel real proud of yourselves.
Caje: “Doc, I told you to skip the sermons.”
Doc: “Listen, you tell me to shut up and I’ll bust you one myself!  And that goes for you too, you big ape.”
Littlejohn: “Now wait a minute, Doc.”
Doc: “What’s the matter?  Don’t you like that kind of talk?  Sounds pretty stupid, doesn’t it?  Well that’s exactly what you two have been sounding like all night, like a couple of kids!  Don’t even know what you’re arguing about anymore.  So you’re tired and you got a little wet.  And you need sleep.  Well, big deal.  So does everybody else!  What about the Sarge?  Boy, you’re really helping him, aren’t you?  Why do you suppose he left you two here?”
Littlejohn: “What are you talking about?  He-he left us here to cover him.”
Doc: “Did he?  Or was it because he was afraid he couldn’t trust you anymore?”

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You really can’t appreciate the scene fully unless you watch it, so go do it!  (all the episodes are available on Youtube, after all)  Now, moving on (this post is getting embarrassingly long), I just wanted to mention one other time – out of many – where Doc works above and beyond the call of duty when it comes to keeping things running smoothly.  There’s an episode in season five called ‘The Letter’, and a big part of it is Saunders trying to keep a new soldier in the squad out of harm’s way because he reminds Saunders of his kid brother.  The ENG (Expendable New Guy) is understandably frustrated with how Saunders constantly keeps him away from the fighting.  And that’s when Doc steps in, time and time again to offer explanations for Saunders’ behavior even if he doesn’t understand it himself.  Plus, he has a couple of talks with Saunders, once again playing the squad mediator.

A job which suits him perfectly, I might add.  Doc has one of the kindest, gentlest personalities I’ve ever seen onscreen or read of in a book.  That doesn’t mean he’s a pushover; he has opinions and he’s not afraid to share them.  He’s just a true, genuine, considerate, admirable person.  And I love him for that.  For all of that. *siiiiiiigh* Now, there are just a few more things I want to include in this post, and I’ll list them quickly in bulleted list.  And then I’m done.  I promise.

This picture makes me laugh :D

  • He looks out for Billy.  All the squad does, really, but I think Doc especially.  Of course, Doc looks out for the whole squad, but Billy…Billy is special.  He’s still basically a kid.  I’m torn between wishing Doc had been in ‘Glow Against The Sky’ because it would have been amazing and heartbreaking all at once to see him and Billy, and not wanting him because the squad did well on their own and I liked how they found a solution to everything.  Anyway, Doc-watching-out-for-Billy is one of my favorite things.
  • And what about Saunders and Doc’s friendship?  There are all those moments in ‘The Letter’ along with the bit right at the end of ‘Hills Are For Heroes’ where Doc’s supporting Saunders as they’re moving out. (it always makes me smile)  I think Saunders relies on Doc as a friend, a pillar of strength to depend on in time of trouble, and basically just someone to turn to in a crisis. (and there are plenty of those)  There’s a beautiful fanvideo commemorating their friendship that I highly recommend you check out.  It’s verrrry feelsy.
  • Last, but certainly, certainly not least, is The Bible Scene.  Oh. My. Word.  I totally freaked out.  TOTALLY.  So, you know, I’m just watching an episode (‘Gideon’s Army’) and then out of the blue, Doc takes a little Bible out of his bag and proceeds to read Kirby the passage about “The sword of the Lord and of Gideon!” and I’m sitting over here just….AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.  THAT IS SO AMAZING. OAISJEORAWKEASDFNMWOEROI.  Etc, etc, etc.  He’s reading.  HIS. BIBLE.  CAN YOU NOT.  THAT’S JUST.  AWESOME. (and really fits with how I’d always headcanoned him as a Christian because his character and the way he’s got such a good attitude and gentle spirit and just….yep.  It’s my headcanon and I’m sticking to it.)

Sooooo.  Finally reached the end of this post (you and me both), and I just want to give you a couple of links to send you on your way 🙂  If you want more technical information, statistics, etc, about Doc there’s a great page for that along with a fantastic essay that I can’t seem to stop reading.  And, lastly, this lovely, tearjerker fanvideo – “Salute To Doc”.

Take the point.

Eva

captain america: the winter soldier – THE BRAINWASHING SCENE

A couple days ago, I watched TWS for the third time (ahhhh…just as epic as ever!) and found that I had wayyyyy too many feelings and thoughts about The Brainwashing Scene (now rather infamous among the fans) to keep them to myself.  So I’m going to dump everything on you guys, and we can all have a feels fest together.  Before I get started, let me just say that I hate Pierce.  I despise Pierce.  He’s the worst Marvel villain, in my opinion, and one of the worst villains in general.  I couldn’t be more against him and his methods if I tried.  Just wanted to get that out of the way before I went on.

  • First of all, you may or may not have noticed that Bucky’s metal arm is WELDED to his SKIN.  What kind of sick person does that to another person? (I used to feel sorry for Dr Zola – based on The First Avenger – but now my opinion of him is low, very low)  HYDRA and everything connected to it is despicable and awful.  The end.
  • Bucky’s flashbacks.  Some of it we already know, namely the train scene (which is heartbreaking in and of itself), but there’s also Zola’s creepiness and operation and being put into deep freeze…  And Bucky looks so frightened when the thingy (I don’t know if it’s a crate or case or coffin or WHAT) is freezing over.
  • Pierce’s slap.  It’s so obvious that he doesn’t very the Winter Soldier as anything other than a machine (‘the asset’), and what do people do when their machines stop working?  Hit them.  The slap wasn’t even really all that hard, and after going through potentially dozens of horrific brain wipes, it probably didn’t really hurt Bucky at all.  But it’s the physiological idea of the thing that matters.
  • “But I knew him.”  FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELS.
  • And, finally, the actual brainwashing itself.  I just…I don’t even really have any words.  The whole scene is horrifying and disturbing and a whole lot of other adjectives that I won’t bore you with right now.  It’s probably the hardest scene I’ve ever, well, seen.  Do you agree?

Eva