feels rant: the ox-bow incident

{Yep, it’s been a while since there’ve been any posts on here besides ‘fanvid friday’ ones – which totally count, btw – so I’m here with some very ranty feels, although since it’s not about a really well known movie, I doubt anyone will reeeeally get it.  HOWEVER.  If you’ve watched TO-BI and been just as emotionally traumatized by it as I was, PLEASE comment and let me know and we can have a good, feelsy session about the whole thing.  ‘Kay?}

164.  The Ox-Bow Incident (1943)  Sheriff: God better have mercy on you. You won't get any from me.

I think this whole thing is going to be more like a bunch of mini-rants, completely disjointed, and they probably won’t make a lot of sense.  I just need to vent right now and get it all off my mind, because when you watch something a month ago and you still think about it EVERY SINGLE, STUPID DAY, it’s time to splash it all over a blog or a journal or an email.  And that’s what Ashley and Jane and I all wanted feelsy feels to be for in the first place, so it works. 🙂

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Okay, first of all, pretty much every tragic death in movies/books/TV shows happens when The Person is married.  Kids (or a kid) are a special, heartbreaking bonus.  Oh, and you get triple bonus points with whipped cream and a cherry on top if said kids are really young.  Because then the mom has to take care of them all by herself and they’ll never know their father, etc., etc.  So, yeah, having the kids be babies is really something special.  AND THAT IS EXACTLY THE SITUATION WITH THE MARTIN FAMILY.  Half of me wants to cry and the other half wants to reach through the screen and kill Tetley.  UGH.

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The members of the ‘posse’ were all complete and total idiots. (I mean, besides Davies, Gil, Sparks, Art…).  First of all, if Martin or one of the others had rustled cattle and killed Kinkaid, they wouldn’t be sleeping.  They’d be riding as hard and as fast as they could to get out of the county (or out of the state) before a posse caught up to them.  And if they DID stop, there would be at least one person left on watch. (And don’t try to tell me that they did leave someone on guard, but he fell asleep – all of three of them were snugly wrapped up and not in any position to keep a look-out.)  Mapes and Tetley and Farnley and Grier were all IDIOTS.

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Gerald Tetley didn’t whip Martin’s horse out from under him.  DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS???  I just…I don’t even want to think about it, let alone talk about it, but let me just say that there’s a reason Farnley shot him. (Twice.  Which was SO, SO uncalled for.)  I’M TEARING UP JUST THINKING ABOUT THE WHOLE THING.  If only Dana Andrews wasn’t such an amazing actor.  Then I wouldn’t care about Martin so much, which means that I wouldn’t have so many feels about the movie, which means I’D BE INFINITELY HAPPIER RIGHT ABOUT NOW.  If you’ve never watched TO-BI, DON’T DO IT.  It’ll shatter your heart, especially if you’re a fangirl, because we tend to get super emotionally involved in Things, right?

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Why on earth did Dana Andrews not get nominated for Best Supporting Actor here??? (He should’ve WON too.)

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Excuse me while I go wallow in emotions. (Not kidding.  I’ll totally go do that.)  Now, if anybody’s worried, I’m not going into major depression over this film, but whenever I think about it, it does give me a pause.  A rather sad pause, too.  I mean, just screenshots from the thing make my throat clench up and I start to feel a bit teary. (And don’t even get me started on The Letter.  Nope.  Not even going to go there.)

Eva

feels about haymitch. and mockingjay. but mostly haymitch.

Several sets of arms would embrace me. But in the end, the only person I truly want to comfort me is Haymitch, because he loves Peeta, too. I reach out for him and say something like his name and he's there, holding me and patting my back. " It's okay. It'll be okay, sweetheart." He sits me on a length of broken marble pillar and keeps an arm around me while I sob. -Another Mockingjay book quote edit I have made. Again when I saw Haymitch hugging Katniss I immediately thought of this part of ...

This isn’t going to be a really long, involved post about all the reasons why Haymitch is probably my favorite Hunger Games character.  Just a short post about a feels attack I had while reading Mockingjay. (I will post something longer on this blog sometime soonish, if I can.)  I didn’t think I’d cry at all on this re-read of MJ because I know the story inside and out and I just used to it, if that makes any sense.  And I was going along fine until after the bombing of 13, when Coin wants Katniss to do another propo to show that 13’s just fine…

“Katniss, just this one line and you’re done today. I promise,” says Cressida. “‘Thirteen’s alive and well and so am I.'”

I swing my arms to loosen myself up. Place my fists on my hips. Then drop them to my sides. Saliva’s filling my mouth at a ridiculous rate and I feel vomit at the back of my throat. I swallow hard and open my lips so I can get the stupid line out and go hide in the woods and – that’s when I start crying.

It’s impossible to be the Mockingjay. Impossible to complete even this one sentence. Because now I know that everything I say will be directly taken out on Peeta. Result in his torture. But not his death, no, nothing so merciful as that. Snow will ensure that his life is much worse than death.

“Cut,” I hear Cressida say quietly.

“What’s wrong with her?” Plutarch says under his breath.

“She’s figured out how Snow’s using Peeta,” says Finnick.

There’s something like a collective sigh of regret from the semicircle of people spread out before me. Because I know this now. Because there will never be a way for me to not know this again. Because, beyond the military disadvantage losing a Mockingjay entails, I am broken.

Several sets of arms would embrace me. But in the end, the only person I truly want to comfort me is Haymitch, because he loves Peeta, too. I reach out for him and say something like his name and he’s there, holding me and patting my back. “It’s okay. It’ll be okay, sweetheart.” He sits me on a length of broken marble pillar and keeps an arm around me while I sob.

“I can’t do this anymore,” I say.

“I know,” he says.

“All I can think of is – what he’s going to do to Peeta – because I’m the Mockingjay!” I get out.

“I know.” Haymitch’s arm tightens around me.

FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELS.  HAYMITCH.  AND KATNISS CRYING.  AND HAYMITCH IS THE ONLY ONE WHO LOVES PEETA TOO.  AND HE KEPT THEM ALIVE IN THE ARENA – TWICE.  I’M JUST GOING TO GO CRY NOW.

*collapses*

“we’ll follow the old man wherever he wants to go…”

(UGGGGGH.  I’m tearing up just re-reading the title of this post.)

A few days ago, I watched White Christmas for the second time in seven years.  Approximately seven years ago, I was having a sleepover with all my other siblings at my grandparents’ house, and once all my brothers or sisters were asleep, Grandma came downstairs and asked me if I wanted to watch a movie just with her and Grandpa.  Of course I said yes. 😀  And White Christmas was the movie we watched.  It was so long ago that I don’t remember any of my reaction to it, just that I had indeed seen it before when Mom brought it up (this being the Christmas time of year and all).  Actually, she just suggested that one of my sisters and I learn how to sing “Sisters” together and I asked where that song was from, she told me, and after I got to thinking about the little bits and pieces I remembered about the movie, I went out and got it from the library.

Because, from what I remembered, it was nearly everything I liked in a movie.  Old movie musical?  Check.  Lots of dancing and singing?  Check.  WWII/soldiers?  Check.  Famous old movie stars?  Check.  Yep, I was pretty sure I would love White Christmas.  My sister (the same one who’s going to sing “Sisters” with me…sometime), was pretty excited about it too.  Soooo…we started it.  And as soon as all the soldiers started singing for General Waverly, the ending of the film rushed back to me.  I turned to my mom and said “I’m going to cry at the end of this.”  To which she replied, “I’m already crying.”  Hoo boy.  I should’ve known right then and there the onslaught of Feels (with a capital ‘F’) was going to be tremendous.  And if I’d thought that then, I wouldn’t have been wrong.

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There were some Feelings during the whole fake engagement and Betty leaving thing because all I could think of was “What’s it going to be like when Elisabeth or I get engaged/married?” (alá Anne Shirley) but the biggest thing was, like I’d thought, the ending.  I haven’t cried so much/so hard during a movie for a loooong time – I’d actually kind of forgotten what it was like to cry for a movie at the level of, say, Les Miserables or BBC’s Robin Hood.  It was so emotional! (in a happy way)  And I don’t really want to give spoilers, in case some people reading this haven’t watched the movie (YOU SHOULD, THOUGH), but you’ll probably cry too.  White Christmas is definitely a film like Saving Mr Banks, in that I tear up just thinking about certain parts.

Oh, well.  Sad is happy for deep people.

Eva

random ‘combat!’ post

I know I’ve been doing all the posts lately.  Ashley/Eowyn and Jane are around here – they’re just pretty busy.  Anyway, I don’t mind writing up posts for this blog, even if most of them are kind of spur-of-the-moment.  A new movie trailer, a quick book review, or, in the case of this post, something really quick just to vent some feels.  Happy, warm, fuzzy feels this time. (I’m going to do a post eventually about the different types of feels, btw)  I was watching ‘The Little Carousel’ last night, and there was a scene that just really made my day.  As in “THOSE ARE MY BOYS BEING AWESOME AND SUCH GOOD FRIENDS I LOVE THIS SHOW SO MUCH” made my day.

Basic backstory: The Squad is checking out a French town to make sure it’s safe for the townspeople to come back.  Annnd, that’s about it.  Hanley’s in his temporary CP.  He needs to see Saunders.  And then THIS conversation happens…

Saunders: “What’s it look like, lieutenant?”
Hanley: “Good and bad.  Our artillery smothered the Kraut guns.”
Saunders: “And the bad?”
Hanley: “German infantry may be moving up in the woods, north side of town.”
Saunders: “How big a unit?”
Hanley: “Company doesn’t know.  It’s French civilian info.  Captain Jampel wants us to check it out.  Send Caje and four men.  They move out in half an hour.”
Saunders: “I’ll go, lieutenant.”
Hanley: “You’re bushed.”
Saunders: “I rested.” [note from Eva: at this point, Hanley gives him a “oh, really?” look and it’s great]
Hanley: “All right.  Now, this Kraut move may be anything – small harassment, pretty good size push, a feint to pull us off our left flank.  Don’t engage the enemy unless it’s a small patrol you think you can handle.  Soon as you make contact, radio back.”
Saunders: “Anything else?”
Hanley:  “Yeah….take care of yourself.”
Saunders: “Always.”

I LOVE IT SO MUCH.

I paused the episode right there and my sister and I were both fangirling in a rather insane way. 😀

Eva

a brief hiatus

Hello, my fellow fangirls!  This is Eva just popping in to say that Feelsy Feels will be on hiatus for a week or two.  School just started back up for me (I live in Canada) and I’m having a bit of trouble scheduling school, writing, and blogging for three different blogs.  Eowyn is currently on vacation, and I know Jane’s schedule is always pretty busy (school and whatnot) so I’ve taken it upon myself to announce a leave-of-absence.  Along with time constraints, there are also some longer, analytical posts I want to publish here and a break from actually have to blog will allow me to get them written in relative peace and quiet.  I hope to see all of you again in a couple of weeks.

Eva

feelsy thoughts on ww2

This photo was taken in February 1943, but not published until September, when it became the first image of dead American troops to appear in LIFE during World War II. George Strock's photo was finally OK'd by government censors, in part because FDR feared the public was growing complacent about the war's horrific toll.      Read more: http://life.time.com/history/world-war-ii-classic-photos-from-life-magazine/#ixzz1wylxzhoH

Yes, I know it’s not fandom-related.  But it’s real life, and that’s better than fandom.  I’ve been swamped with WWII feels, books, movies, etc., for weeks now.  Rat Patrol, the Liberation trilogy by Rick Atkinson, Unbroken (review coming soonish!), Battle Of The Bulge (the movie), and prep for the WWI/WWII course I’ll be going through this school year.  WWII stories, movies, music, non-fiction always makes me cry.  I don’t look at battle statistics and see numbers.  I see lives – each individual life is part of the bigger picture.  Stories and movies are even more heartbreaking that non-fiction (sometimes) because faces are personalized, stories become real, and you can’t help but hurt for the characters.  I could go on for hours about WWII, how I feel about it, my favorite books and movies surrounding it, but I won’t.  Instead, I want to share with you an excerpt of an essay, a picture, and a quote.

Sent to my by a friend, this except is one of the worst and best things I’ve read on war. (it was the thing that inspired this post)

“Earning honor under fire changes who you are. The blast-furnace of battle burns away impurities encrusting your soul. The white-hot forge of combat hammers you into a purified, hardened warrior willing to die rather than break your word to friends – your honor.

“The biggest sadness of your life is to see friends falling. The biggest surprise of your life is to survive the war. Although still alive on the outside, you are dead inside – shot thru the heart with nonsensical guilt for living while friends died. The biggest lie of your life torments you that you could have done something more, different, to save them. Their faces are the tombstones in your weeping eyes, their souls shine the true camaraderie you search for the rest of your life but never find.

“You live a different world now. You always will.  Your world is about waking up night after night screaming, back in battle.  Your world is about your best friend bleeding to death in your arms, howling in pain for you to kill him.  Your world is about shooting so many enemies the gun turns red and jams, letting the enemy grab you.  Your world is about struggling hand-to-hand for one more breath of life.  

“You never speak of your world. Those who have seen combat do not talk about it. Those who talk about it have not seen combat.  You come home but a grim ghost of he who so lightheartedly went off to war. But home no longer exists. That world shattered like a mirror the first time you were shot at. The splintering glass of everything you knew fell at your feet, revealing what was standing behind the mirror – grinning Death – and you are face to face, nose to nose with it!

“You did your duty, survived the dance, and returned home. But not all of you came back to the civilian world. Your heart and mind are still in the Warrior’s World, as far away from the civilian world as Mars. They will always be in the Warrior’s World. They will never leave, they are buried there. In that far off hallowed home of honor, life is about keeping your word.

Back in the civilian world, however, people have no idea that life is about keeping your word of honor . They think life is about ballgames, backyards, barbecues, babies and business.” ~from ‘The Warrior’s Code Of Honour’ by Paul R. Allen

This picture (collage, really) always makes me tear up.  I don’t know why, it just does.

Same place, different time.....oh, goodness, this made me cry.

And, finally, the quote.

“Never in the field of human conflict was so much owed by so many to so few.” ~Winston Churchill

Eva

why do we fangirl?

join-a-fandom-and-die-with-feelsWhy do we fangirl?

It’s a fair question.

The same could be said of the question: Why do we become obsessed with fandoms and devote entire blogs, Pinterest boards, and Facebook pages to them? Aren’t our crazy lives enough to get excited about?

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I’d say no.5012b4a712026e59bccf670ad3388349

Eva just did a wonderful post on getting too obsessed with actors and the characters they play, and I think this applies to fandoms, too. (The post is well worth the read and, if you have time, I’d encourage you to do so!)

I know people who have gotten completely and totally obsessed with certain fandoms to the point of utter distraction. They’re unable to think or talk about anything else. I know how this feels because I was one of those people – and, if I were completely honest with you guys, still am about certain things on certain days. (THAT LAST EMMA APPROVED EPISODE, ANYONE?!)

So, yes, I think that, without boundaries, fandoms can be, well, deadly. Deadly to your relationships, especially with the Lord.9173376294505ce9cb7026b2922b043b

But I also think that, with boundaries, fandoms are a good thing. For me personally, my fandoms have helped me make friends with people I would have never met. That’s how Jane and I first met and it’s also how Eva and I first met. Our mutual love of certain fandoms is what initially brought the three of us together and we’ve talked about the fandoms for hours on end. But we’ve also talked about other things – important things like relationships and love and marriage and God.

Another reason why I think loving fandoms is a good thing is because – again, personally – I think it has given me the capacity to love non-fandom things more thoroughly. I don’t really know how to explain it, so I’ll just leave it at that. If anybody knows what I’m talking about, you can comment.

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I’m glad I’m a geeky fangirl. I’m glad I like things like this. I’m grateful for the way being a fangirl has changed me for the better and for good.28b9df115231bb1204f6e09eb7edf5e1

(IS THAT NOT THE SADDEST AND TRUEST THING EVER?!)

If you have any thoughts on this, please comment! We love comments. 🙂

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the awesomeness that is DIETRICH

"In which Hans Gudegast/Eric Braeden is a terrifying actor. You can just see all of Dietrich’s men that have fallen to the Rats in his eyes. Right there. The men, the boys, the friends and barely-knew-hims he’s seen dragged out of flaming convoys because of Troy. And that is all in a moment of film, a sliver that you barely notice unless you stop the footage."

“…not a perfect soldier, but a good man.”

That quote is in reference to Captain America/Steve Rogers, but I find that it fits Dietrich’s character incredibly well.  He may not always agree with the Nazi mindset (okay, he never agrees with it) but he’ll still work through the twisted morals of his superiors to serve his country to the best of his ability…and at the same time, never sacrificing his own ideals for the sake of convenience or even safety.  There was one episode (‘Truce At Aburah’, which I’ll be discussing further a little later on) where a superior officer threatened to send a report to Berlin (a report that would probably get him pulled down in the ranks, if not executed) if Dietrich didn’t break a truce he had with the Rat Patrol (they’d agreed to a truce so that they could save a little girl out of a well), and Dietrich doesn’t budge.  His attitude is basically “do what you want, I’m not moving on this one”.  Because innocent civilians are more important than some crazy dude’s rantings.  And that’s just one example.

“I don’t want them to change me…Turn me into some kind of monster that I’m not….I keep wishing I could think of a way to…to show them that they don’t own me. That I’m more than just a piece in their game.”

*all the Hunger Games fangirls burst into tears*

Again, it’s not specifically from The Rat Patrol, but this quote…this quote so fits Dietrich.  It’s something he could’ve said.  I’m sure it’s something he thought on more than one occasion.  Like the time when he’s ordered to go find a certain kid, put a Star of David on him, drag him in to Nazi HQ, and send him off to a concentration camp. (from ‘Death Do Us Part’ – overall, the episode is probably my least favorite, but Dietrich is amazing in that one)  He doesn’t want to disobey a direct order, but the entire thing is wrong, and he knows it.  Consider…

German officer hands Dietrich his orders.
Dietrich reads over the paper and sighs heavily.
Dietrich: “So far we have been able to abstain from this sort of thing in the Africa campaign.”
German officer glares at him.
German officer: “What are you trying to tell me?”
Dietrich: “Merely that I want to register my objection to this.”
German officer: “Are you sure you can afford to?”
Dietrich: “I can’t afford not to!”
Dramatic music.  Hitch, Tully, and Moffitt look at each other.  Dietrich salutes and leaves.

Oh wow.  Ohhhhhh wow.

DO YOU SEE WHAT I MEAN?

(plus, when he went to get the boy, he was so close to breaking down…it was horrible)

Would you call those puppy eyes? I’d call those puppy eyes.

Or in ‘Decoy Raid’ when a half-insane SS officer (hmm…there seems to be a theme going here) who I believe potentially has the authority to demote Dietrich, won’t keep his side of a bargain (a member of the RP – in this case, Moffitt – in exchange for a desperately needed medical nurse) and Dietrich practically loses it with him.  Flat-out yelling at a guy who’s crazy enough to kill him.  Dietrich rarely looses his cool, but in this case, he feels that the capture of the nurse was partly his fault and if he doesn’t get her back to the village she was taken from, an epidemic will break out.  So, he’s too frustrated to care anymore. (that SS guy was a jerk, btw)

“As a member of the SS, you are supposed to have a sense of honour.  As you recall, we concluded the bargain…for heaven’s sake, man, think of your sanity as a human being!”

(if you want to watch a good Dietrich-centric episode, ‘Decoy Raid’ is the one to go to, just so you know)

“One of my favorite moments is when Dietrich is in one Nazi’s office and mentions something about Hitler and gives the most dismissive, hate-filled side-eye to the bust on the man’s desk.”

I’m 99.99999999999 percent certain that the writers for this show based Dietrich off of Rommel.  Besides the obvious similarities in their gear/stance/etc, there’s the similarities in their characters as well.  Both were honourable men, who didn’t always agree with the Nazi mindset, but still stayed true to their country.  Plus, I recently read a book about WWII which stated that Rommel gained the respect of both the Allies and the Germans, and I think that within the little pocket of the North African campaign, Dietrich did that too.  He obeys orders, but he’s also fair when it comes to prisoners, civilians, and truces.  And let me go a little further and say that Dietrich probably met Rommel….

OKAY I CAN’T BE CALM ABOUT THIS ANYMORE.  THIS IS MY FAVORITE IN-UNIVERSE HEADCANON AND I HAVE TO RANT A LITTLE BIT.  IT’S BASICALLY CANON.  Because what about all those times that Dietrich has failed a mission? (don’t get me started…I might cry)  And failed it in a big way, I might add.  Despite what Hogan’s Heroes may tell you, not all Nazis are idiots (although the guy in the tag scene from ‘Touch-And-Go’ was pretty stupid).  Dietrich would probably have been shot because of all those botched missions, right?  BUT HERE’S WHERE THE HEADCANON COMES IN.  Maybe early on in his North African career, Dietrich met Rommel.  And Rommel was really impressed with him, so he invited Dietrich to join him for dinner and they became friends and Rommel fields all of Dietrich’s reports and that’s why Dietrich hasn’t gotten pulled from the ranks or shot.  And every so often, Dietrich has dinner with Rommel and they discuss strategy and how the war’s going and Dietrich always feels cheered up after those visits.

One reason that headcanon is my favorite is because Dietrich always seems so lonely.  He’s only twenty-five, he has a huge burden of responsibility on his shoulders, and he doesn’t have a good team behind him (the way Troy does) because the Rat Patrol almost always kill off his men.  So I’ll bet that eventually he doesn’t allow himself to get close to anyone because they always end up dying, and he’s always the last man standing, and the burden of guilt and loneliness would be too much if he let himself be friends with anyone.  There have been a few episodes where things worked out.  ‘Moment Of Truce’ for one, since everyone survived (including cute bubble-gum boy – Heine) and ‘Touch-And-Go’ (which I love because it actually shows Dietrich working with his men…pretty epic).  But on the other end of the spectrum, there’s ‘Truce At Aburah’ where every. single. one. of his men dies.  After they’d had a little characterization as well.  Which was so heartbreaking.  I literally can’t.  His expression when he realizes he’s the last one standing.  I just.  No.

And it was only a couple days ago that I realized that the reason he hesitated for so long before agreeing to the truce wasn’t because he didn’t want to rescue the girl.  It was because he knew only too well how truces usually end (how missions in general usually end, for that matter) and he didn’t want to endanger his men.  But in the end, he agreed to the truce because ‘maybe we can save this little girl and maybe things will go well this time’.  AND THEN THEY DON’T AND IT’S UTTERLY HEARTBREAKING.  On a side note, I do love the little bits of interaction/protectiveness/commanding-officer thing we get between Dietrich and his men.  Like in ‘Touch-And-Go’ when they’re discussing what to do (at different times in the episode) or in ‘Moment Of Truce’ when Dietrich says “Don’t give orders to my men!” when Troy tells them ‘stop shooting at what they can’t see’.  You can see just how much he wants to keep them safe (well, as safe as he can during times of war) and that makes the whole thing so much worse.

"It speaks volumes of Dietrich’s experience with the Rats that he’s willing to go along with whatever plan it is that Troy came up with. And also about the fact that while Dietrich has his pride, boy does he have his pride, he is above all a practical man. Despite how it rankles, he will take Troy’s initial plans above his own when it comes to crazed escapes."

One thing I haven’t really discussed in this post is Dietrich’s frenemyship with the Rat Patrol (but especially Troy).  It’s really-it’s just one of the most epic things ever.  From the moment in ‘Chase Of Fire’ where they did the whole ‘glare-at-each-other-as-the-jeeps-ride-off-into-the-sunset’ thing to where Troy nearly fatally shot Dietrich in the very last episode of the series (‘Kill At Koorlea’), there’s this awesomely dysfunctional frenemyship that I find incredibly awesome.  The truce episodes are the best for showcasing the whole thing (although anytime Dietrich captures any of them is also good) and of all of those, ‘Chain Of Death’ is my favorite.  Short summary: Troy and Dietrich are captured by Arab slave traders and chained together. (with a very long, very heavy chain…what were those Arabs thinking?)  They manage to escape, and have to work together (with the chain between them) to get back to civilization.  There are so many epic things in this episode that I couldn’t begin to list them all, but a few of my favorites (i.e., the ones that illustrate Troy and Dietrich’s relationship to each other) are as follows…

  • Dietrich deferring to Troy’s hair-brained schemes because they actually do work most of the time.
  • Their [fake] slug-fest. (looked pretty real to me, though)
  • Nearly killing each other with the chain until they decide to work together. (basically this whole show)
  • Dietrich goes unconscious and Troy drags him under some shade before concocting a ‘let’s-get-out-of-this-chain’ plan.
  • And the tag scene.

oh, come on, like Troy's really going to shoot Dietrich.

I don’t think any of the Rats are even close to being friends with Dietrich, but they respect him and trust him, at least to some extent.  And that’s more than they give any other German guy (and quite a few Allied ones, as well).  I don’t think they’d kill him (or he’d kill one of them) but they’re still enemies.  Occasional allies, yes.  Friends, no.  There was that one time where Dietrich saved Moffitt’s life by getting him a  live blood donor.  Or when Dietrich saved Moffitt from court martial.  Or when Dietrich shot that crazy SS guy in ‘Decoy Raid’ before he could shoot Moffitt. (um, wow…I’m getting a theme here)  But there’ve also been times where he’s clearly angry/frustrated with the whole lot of them.  Or sometimes, more specifically, Troy.

Dietrich rarely loses him temper enough to start shouting, but there have been a few times.  Annnd they usually have something to do with Troy.  In ‘Boomerang Raid’ he and Troy actually started fighting (like, fists flying fighting) which never happens.  In ‘Tug Of War’ (another insanely good Dietrich episode) he starts yelling at Troy, mainly because Troy refuses to give him some information (and if Troy doesn’t give him the information, he [Troy, not Dietrich] will be hung).  I think he was frustrated in that episode, yes, but he was also worried because Troy had gotten himself into a very dangerous position and he couldn’t do anything about it.  OH AND IN THAT SCENE HE STARTS LAUGHING BUT IT’S THE SADDEST, MOST BITTER LAUGH YOU’LL EVER HERE AND I’M ALMOST POSITIVE IT WAS A ‘If you don’t laugh, you’ll cry’ SITUATION.  FEEEEEEEEEEEEELS.

Dietrich: “Sergeant, can’t you get it through your head that unless you tell me where you disposed of the microfilm, you are going to be hanged tomorrow!”
Troy:  “I saw that possibility.”
Dietrich: “You don’t believe it?”
Troy: “I believe it.”
Dietrich: “Then face facts, man!  You cannot possibly deliver that film to the Allies.  So the very thing you are throwing your life away for is worthless.”
Troy: “Then why do you want it so badly, Captain?”
Dietrich: “Because, Sergeant, an exposure of classified information rattling under my nose is very uncomfortable to me.”
Troy: “That’s your problem, Captain.”

And the iconic episode where Dietrich pulls off and slugs Troy.  Knocks him right out.  But I don’t blame him that time (it was from ‘Trial By Fire’, btw) because Troy tripped him up, Dietrich was frustrated with all of his stupid tricks, and it just built up and built up until he just…punched Troy out.  AND in that same episode, Troy pulls a gun on him and tells Dietrich to call the guard (so that he can kill the guard) and Dietrich hesitates for the longest time.  BECAUSE HE DIDN’T WANT THE GUARD TO DIE.  MAYBE HE KNEW THAT GUARD.  JUST-I’m done.  I’m 24601% done.

Troy: “Looks like our friend found a home.”  PUPPY DIETRICH AND DOGGIE ARE NOW FRIENDS.

There are some happy Dietrich moments as well, and I’ll close of this [super-long] post with listing a few of them.

  • the above gif. (‘Darers Go First’)
  • when he tries to make sure a little girl gets her doll back in ‘Trial By Fire’.
  • eating cinnamon rolls.
  • being happy when he sends Troy/jeeps packing. (happened once, in one episode, ‘David And Goliath’, I believe)
  • WHEN HE SPEAKS ARABIC IN ‘CHAIN OF DEATH’.  He’s actually really mad when he does that, but it was so epic that I had to include it here.

What are your thoughts on Dietrich? (if you’ve seen the show, that is…if you haven’t get to Youtube post-haste!)

Eva

In Dreams

Awhile ago, Eowyn and I had a LotR week, and one of the things we did was make a video.  It turned out that we both owned the same book of LotR music, so she recorded the piano part of In Dreams and I did the violin part, and then we put it together and she turned it into a Faramir/Eowyn music video.

And I can’t insert it directly onto this blog, so here’s the post where you can watch it. 🙂

 

Welcome to feelsy feels!

Enjolras.

Wicked.

Jack Cavanaugh.

Anne of Green Gables.

Tangled.

Hans (of the Southern Isles).

The Winter Soldier.

Mac Campbell.

If you’re still able to read these words because they’re not blurry through the tears brimming over in your eyes, you have no business being here.

feelsy feels is for fans of anything and everything – books, movies, musicals, you name it.  It’s a public place to rant and vent our feels so that we don’t disturb those around us.  (People like you, you non-crying people.  Go away.)

I first got the inspiration for feelsy feels after starting a Skype group with two good friends, specifically to fangirl over the upcoming release of Captain America: The Winter Soldier.  We’re still going strong, making inside jokes about changing the words to ‘One Day More,’ performing one another’s funerals, and crying over Bucky.  It’s been quite therapeutic.  Our conversations literally consist of…

“OHMYSTARS.  THIS.”  *sends picture*

“WHATNO.”

“HOW DARE YOU.”

“I just died inside…”

“IOAGNGLKWFLKAGIO.”

“I KNOW.”

And then everybody cries.  (Together in spirit, but apart because of the miles that separate us.)

I’ve decided that this sharing-of-feels shouldn’t be limited to just me and my two friends.  No, I’ve decided to open it up to the whole world.  I will write a few of the posts to get started, enlist a few other friends to write a few, but I want it to mainly run on guest posts.

Yes, this means you.

feelsy feels is for feels, and that doesn’t just mean comments.  That means active participation.

YOU get to write the posts.  YOU get to rant about your fandoms.  YOU get to indulge in a little fangirling (or fanboying) over your favorite thing in the world.

Only a few disclaimers – although I’d love to indulge everyone, I won’t publish anything that goes against my convictions or preferences, anything with too many inappropriate references or jokes, or anything that doesn’t honor God.  Anything that falls under these categories will be discarded with a polite, but firm, “Thank you, but I won’t be able to publish that.”

Now!  With all of that behind us…

shallwebegin