feels about haymitch. and mockingjay. but mostly haymitch.

Several sets of arms would embrace me. But in the end, the only person I truly want to comfort me is Haymitch, because he loves Peeta, too. I reach out for him and say something like his name and he's there, holding me and patting my back. " It's okay. It'll be okay, sweetheart." He sits me on a length of broken marble pillar and keeps an arm around me while I sob. -Another Mockingjay book quote edit I have made. Again when I saw Haymitch hugging Katniss I immediately thought of this part of ...

This isn’t going to be a really long, involved post about all the reasons why Haymitch is probably my favorite Hunger Games character.  Just a short post about a feels attack I had while reading Mockingjay. (I will post something longer on this blog sometime soonish, if I can.)  I didn’t think I’d cry at all on this re-read of MJ because I know the story inside and out and I just used to it, if that makes any sense.  And I was going along fine until after the bombing of 13, when Coin wants Katniss to do another propo to show that 13’s just fine…

“Katniss, just this one line and you’re done today. I promise,” says Cressida. “‘Thirteen’s alive and well and so am I.'”

I swing my arms to loosen myself up. Place my fists on my hips. Then drop them to my sides. Saliva’s filling my mouth at a ridiculous rate and I feel vomit at the back of my throat. I swallow hard and open my lips so I can get the stupid line out and go hide in the woods and – that’s when I start crying.

It’s impossible to be the Mockingjay. Impossible to complete even this one sentence. Because now I know that everything I say will be directly taken out on Peeta. Result in his torture. But not his death, no, nothing so merciful as that. Snow will ensure that his life is much worse than death.

“Cut,” I hear Cressida say quietly.

“What’s wrong with her?” Plutarch says under his breath.

“She’s figured out how Snow’s using Peeta,” says Finnick.

There’s something like a collective sigh of regret from the semicircle of people spread out before me. Because I know this now. Because there will never be a way for me to not know this again. Because, beyond the military disadvantage losing a Mockingjay entails, I am broken.

Several sets of arms would embrace me. But in the end, the only person I truly want to comfort me is Haymitch, because he loves Peeta, too. I reach out for him and say something like his name and he’s there, holding me and patting my back. “It’s okay. It’ll be okay, sweetheart.” He sits me on a length of broken marble pillar and keeps an arm around me while I sob.

“I can’t do this anymore,” I say.

“I know,” he says.

“All I can think of is – what he’s going to do to Peeta – because I’m the Mockingjay!” I get out.

“I know.” Haymitch’s arm tightens around me.




movie scenes that really, really make me cry

Fandom feels, we are not alone #17

I’m pretty emotional when it comes to movies.  If there’s a sad scene, you can pretty much be guaranteed that I’ll cry.  Listing all the movie scenes that set me off would take forever (honestly) so I’ve whittled it down to the top five scenes that make me cry.  I mean, really sob.  Ugly crying, you know.  There are actually several scenes that qualify for this thingy too (although most sad movie scenes just make me tear up…still, if I’m sad enough to tear up, the scene has definitely touched me) so I’ve also based my picks on the scenes that have stuck with me the longest.  Sometimes I’ll cry over a scene, and then not really think about if much afterwards (certain deaths in Downton Abbey come to mind) but these scenes are tried and true.  And if I don’t end this post in a puddle of tears, it’ll be a miracle.

In alphabetical order (because I like being weird) using the movie titles…

~Captain America: The First Avenger

“You know, I still don’t know how to dance.”
“I’ll show you how.  Just be there.”
“We’ll have the band play something slow.  I’d hate to step on your-“
“Steve?  Steve?”

~Catching Fire

“She was too young, too gentle.  And I couldn’t save her.  I’m sorry.”

~Les Miserables

*strains of Bring Him Home playing*

~Robin Hood

“What am I going to be without you?”
“You are already more of a man than I will ever be, Much.  And you are my best friend.”


*gorgeous, Oscar-nominated music plays*


our leader the mockingjay

(Only thoughts: District 13 looks so abandoned and awesome!!!  OOH, COIN…  Ugh, Gale… ‘The face of the rebellion” – YESH…  Snow!!!  Oh, soooo creepy…  Ooh, stuff being blown up!  Aww, Katniss looks SO sad and weak!  MOCKINGJAY!!! Ugh, why isn’t it LONGER?! *sniff* Peeeeeeetaaaaaaa…..)

hunger games feels {part 3}

The Hunger Games Mockingjay Part 1| Serafini Amelia

This is my final post about Hunger Games feels (well, at least the basic points in the book…expect more ranting from me and the other authors in posts to come – and you can send in your own posts as well!). Mockingjay is one of the darkest, most depressing books I’ve ever read (in a good way) and it’s chock-full of feels – more than the first two combined, in my opinion. The whole book is basically one big feels session, but I’ll narrow down a few of the worst triggers.

Peeta - Mockingjay Part 1

PEETAPEETAPEETA – Anything and everything about Peeta in this book. He’s tortured, brainwashed, tries to kill the love of his life, goes around playing ‘real or not real?’ (the word ‘real’ has taken on a whole new dimension for me), and is dragged through what is basically another arena. Oh, and he also starts thinking that he’s a Capitol mutt. I know he gets a happy ending, but for most of the book, I can’t help but cry over him. If he’s in a scene, there’s a good chance I’ll at least tear up.

"It’s as if in an instant, a painted window shatters, revealing the ugly world behind it. Laughter changes to screams, blood stains pastel stones […] I draw back so I can see his face. “What? Boggs? Boggs?” His eyes are still open, but dead. Pressed in my hand, glued to it by his blood, is the Holo." - Katniss (Mockingjay)

Boggs’ death – The first of many heartbreaking deaths in this book, Boggs’ death pushes everything to a new level of serious. The first time I read MJ, I didn’t really cry, ‘cause I was reading it so fast that I didn’t even really know who Boggs was. But on my re-read, I paid more attention and Boggs became one of my favorite new characters. He’s a soldier, very loyal to the rebel cause, and he trusts Katniss enough to give her his comunicuff (I don’t think I spelled that right) just before he dies.

Sam Claflin brings Finnick Odair to life! See him in action when the #CatchingFireDVD comes out March 7th!


Sister like sister, Very cool...

Katniss telling Buttercup about Prim – I didn’t really cry when Prim died. I felt I hadn’t really gotten to know her that well (I think she’s one of the flatter characters in the series) and even Katniss’ reaction to it didn’t move me all that much. BUT WHEN SHE TOLD THE STUPID CAT I TOTALLY LOST IT. WHYYYYYYYYY???

I just know that I will cry during the entire Mockingjay movie from start to finish.

Gale – I was so disappointed with the whole Gale thing in the end that I cried, although it could’ve been more frustration than anything else. Katniss accuses him of killing Prim (why didn’t Beetee get any of the blame???), he goes off, and the next thing you know, he’s living in District Two, with some swanky job. And the way Suzanne Collins wrote it, it’s like Gale doesn’t care about any of the other characters anymore (including Katniss) and he’s living for money and fame now. And that, in my opinion, is almost as wrong as Finnick’s death.

"Our children, who don't know they play on a graveyard." - Katniss (End of Mockingjay)


I feel like I missed something, but I can’t imagine what it is – any ideas?


hunger games feels {part 2}

Only thing that bothers me is that Peeta's line is from the first book, not Catching Fire.

Well, here I am, back again for another installment of Hunger Games feels, this time from Catching Fire. Away we go…

"A wave of shame rushes through me... How can I stand here, passive and mute, leaving all the words to Peeta? If she had won, Rue would never have let my death go unsung. I remember how I took care in the arena to cover her with flowers, to make sure her loss did not go unnoticed. But that gesture will mean nothing if I don't support it now. "Wait!" I stumble forward..." - Katniss (Catching Fire, Chapter 4)

Visiting District 11 – Rue’s district. Thresh’s district. The very first stop on the Victory Tour. Honestly, everything about this scene is heartbreaking. Peeta has such an amazing way with words (in my opinion, the movie version is even better than the book, because we actually get to hear what Peeta says about Thresh and Rue), not to mention giving up one month of their winnings to the tributes’ families. Katniss takes the microphone AND THAT PART MADE ME CRY EVEN HARDER THAN RUE’S DEATH. And then the whistle and the salute, which was so powerful in both the book and the movie. Hands down, this scene is one of the ones that made me cry the hardest.

Gale and Katniss in Catching Fire...them two just had some amazing moments

Gale’s whipping – All because of a dead turkey. I hate this scene, and the ones that come after with Gale recovering, because from the way Suzanne Collins describes the whole thing, you can almost feel his pain. Katniss is distraught, Gale is basically insensible from the pain, and…just…yeah. It’s one of the hardest bits to read. Although I love how Ripper and the others step in and save Gale. That part was epic.

The announcement of the Quarter Quell.

The Quarter Quell announcement – My mom didn’t really know any spoilers for Catching Fire, so when this happened, she was so shocked that she cried. I knew it was going to happen, but I cried as well. I can’t imagine the horror of thinking you were safe and then President Snow’s like “Whoops, sorry, you’ve got to go back and kill people. My bad.” What makes it even worse is that now Katniss is bent on keeping Peeta alive (while he’s bent on keeping her alive) and how Peeta volunteers for Haymitch and I basically don’t have any tears left by that part.

NEW PICS: Behind The Scenes of the Caesar Flickerman Interviews

Interviews – What an emotionally charged evening. The tributes were all brilliant in how they turned everything back to the Capitol and tried to stop the Games. They’re angry, they’re frustrated, they’re sad, and no matter what happens, nobody’s going to stop them from showing it. BUT PEETA. “If it wasn’t for the baby.” I know, I know, Katniss wasn’t really pregnant, but I’ve got to admit that that part…oh my goodness. It was maaajorly feelsy. And don’t even mention the tributes all holding hands. I know the bond broke right away in the arena, but for a moment, they were all together and it was THE MOST AWESOME AWESOMENESS EVER.

Catching Fire. Cinna's sneaky little three-fingered salute killed me.

CINNA – Cinna. Anything about Cinna. His breathtaking Mockingjay dress, what he said about channelling his emotions into his work, when he was dragged away by Peacekeepers. Cinna was Katniss’ rock in the eddying swirl of the Capitol, and he’s one of my favorite characters, if not the favorite. And to have him dragged away and killed during Capitol interrogation was beyond horrible. I hate it.

District 4's courageous victor Mags.


Catching Fire - Jabberjay scene. I loved how Peeta was there for Katniss <3

Jabberjays – Ugh. This part. THIS. PART. Katniss and Finnick curled up in mental agony screaming and trying to block out the sounds and Katniss going berserk with her arrows and trying to kill all the birds…AND PEETA ON THE OTHER SIDE, HELPLESS TO DO ANYTHING. I think Suzanne Collins loves torturing both characters and readers alike.

I absolutely LOVED this last scene in Catching Fire.  In Katniss' reaction you can see the pain from having Peeta taken, the sadness of having her district destroyed, and lastly you can see her anger at Snow for what all has happened.  This just shows that Jennifer Lawrence is truly an amazing actress.  That she understands the depth of Katniss' emotions enough to portray them on-screen, is just all the more amazing.  Bravo Jenn.  From- Kamryn George

“There is no District 12” – Katniss’ home. Destroyed. Sure, her family got out, but…still heartbreaking.

What are some of the feelsiest moments from Catching Fire, in your opinion?


my feels triggers: eowyn

Hey, guys!!  Eowyn here.  I was going to do an epic post about one of my favorite fandoms… when I realized…



So I’m here to talk about my feels triggers.  The epic post will have to wait.  (Also, these are strictly my movie feels triggers.  If I included books in here… we’d all be here forever.)


6 – Disney

Okay, so I’m a 90’s kid.  Most of the movies during Disney’s (FIRST) Golden Age came out when I was little, so I grew up on them.  Disney will always have a special place in my heart.  I’ve really enjoyed seeing the newer Disney movies going back to their older standards, which is why I called the Golden Age the first one.  The most recent examples of this are Frozen and Maleficent, which both show that true love isn’t always between a guy and a girl.


5 – Lord of the Rings / The Hobbit

I’m a Tolkiendil, and Faramir is my favorite character in the entire Lord of the Rings/The Hobbit fandom.  I had to read all of the LOTR books before I could watch the movies, and I’ll remember them forever!  While I’m not one of those huuuuuge fans who has an entire cosplay wardrobe or can say the pledge of allegiance in Elvish… I still love watching the movies – The Superior EXTENDED Editions, thankyouverymuch.


4- Les Miserables

Ugh, Les Mis…. Why must you torture me so?  This is my favorite musical evah, and I love it for so many reasons!!!  Whenever someone says they don’t like it, I instantly go all “Who cares about your lonely soul?” on them.  (You don’t want to see me like that.  Trust me.)  Honestly, where is there a better example of the law vs. grace, besides Christ’s ultimate sacrifice for sinners like you and me?  True, it’s been called The Musical Where Everyone Dies, but it’s totally worth it.  One of my dreams is to see it on Broadway!


3 – The Hunger Games

Okay.  This is a relatively new fandom for me (as in, I was finally allowed to read the books and watch the movies less than a month ago), but I’m all in.  When I read the books, I was completely and totally enamored with how deep they all are!  There are so many great analogies and morals.  I can’t wait to read the books again!  Hopefully I can read them in longer than a week, though.  That was a little much.  (Speaking of, Mockingjay Parts One and Two are going to kill me.  Ugh, I’ll probably be all SGOINGLFALNKGNI after seeing them.  Excuse my pardon.)


2 – Marvel (or, more specifically, STEEEEEEEEEEEEEEVE.)

I was never really a “superhero person” – up until about three years ago, that is.  Captain America: The First Avenger was my first real introduction to superheroes (the old Superman and Spider-Man movies don’t count because I didn’t like them at. all), and I’ve been hooked ever since!  I’ve seen more of the Marvel movies over the past year than I care to admit, and I love all of them (even the Thor movies, which, to be totally honest, I only love because of Hiddles.  Sue me.)  Steve Rogers will always be my favorite, though – and you can be sure that I’ll do many, many, many posts about him.

ABC's "Boy Meets World" - File Photos

1 – Boy Meets World

*sigh*  Boy Meets World, how do I love thee?  Let me count the ways.

There’s a reason why BMW is my top favorite fandom.  It’s real – that’s what I love about it.  There’s nothing wrong with the other Disney shows – I enjoy watching a few episodes of all of them.  However, you can only go so far with a TV show about bionic teenagers or a teenage rockstar or a group of super-smart kids.  Boy Meets World is real.  It’s about a group of teenagers with no ambitions to be famous, who go through normal struggles such as friendship problems, family problems, and school problems.  I’ve learned so much from this show since I discovered it last October – mostly due to mentor/teacher/neighbor/friend, George Feeny.  Feeny and the other adults on the show is the other reason why I love it – while they’re often very funny, they’re always smarter than the kids, who know to go to them for advice.  The episodes always have a point and a lesson to be learned.  I’m currently on Season Five, and I love it to itty-bitty bits and pieces.  (Don’t even get me started on how excited I am about Girl Meets World.)

hunger games feels {part 1}

Hunger games

So, the newest thing on Feelsy Feels is that there will be regular posts on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. I, Eva, took Wednesday, so here I am with a post about The Hunger Games. The entire series is loaded with feels, and I’m going to do a short post series that hits all the major feelsy stuff in each book. Try not to cry too much…

Gale, Prim, and Mrs. Everdeen after Katniss volunteers. I may be team peeta and may not like gale that much but he still cares about katniss's family, and I love that about him!

Katniss volunteering at the Reaping – Right off, this book has feels. In just the second chapter, Katniss is making an incredible self-sacrifice to keep her sister alive and out of the Games. I mean, think about this for a minute. Katniss knows she’s going on what will almost certainly turn out to be a suicide mission. And she still volunteers. Honestly, I don’t think I’d have the guts to do that. Katniss herself says that that kind of thing never happens in most districts. That is the one thing that made me like Katniss, more than anything else.

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Peeta announcing to the world that he loves Katniss – This might not seem like a big feelsy thing to most people, but it was to me. COME ON. Peeta’s been in love with Katniss for years, and he only confesses it when he’s about to be killed (at least in his mind). I know it was part of his strategy with Haymitch, but he really did mean it. And then just imagine what he felt like when Katniss basically attacked him afterwards. Peeta’s just about the sweetest guy ever, and he deserved more than what he got.

"Sixty seconds. That’s how long we’re required to stand on our metal circles before the sound of a gong releases us. Step off before the minute is up, and land mines blow your legs off. Sixty seconds to take in the ring of tributes all equidistant from the Cornucopia, a giant golden horn shaped like a cone with a curved tail, the mouth of which is at least twenty feet high, spilling over with the things that will give us life here in the arena."

The start of the Games – Oh my goodness, I could feel the sheer terror and desperation when I read the start-of-the-Games scenes. I can’t imagine what it would feel like to be put out in a controlled environment with twenty-three other people who want your blood. Plus, all the kids dying at the Cornucopia and FEELS ‘CAUSE THEY’RE JUST KIDS. It’s more graphic in the movie, but the book definitely gets the feeling/message across well.

The Hunger Games - Rue's death    “Deep in the meadow, under the willowA bed of grass, a soft green pillowLay down your head, and close your sleepy eyesAnd when again they open, the sun will rise.”

Rue’s death – THE ULTIMATE FEELS SCENE.  Rue is pretty much the most endearing tribute.  She’s sweet, young, and takes care of her siblings much like Katniss does with Prim.  I’m glad that the Games didn’t come down to her and Katniss and Peeta, but still…her death just goes to show how sick the entire Capitol system is.  It doesn’t help that Katniss sings a song for her, since music always makes things more emotional.  I sob my way through that scene every time I read it.

The hunger games :) tresh & rue :)

Thresh sparing Katniss’ life – No matter how horrible I feel over Rue’s death, this part always makes me cry harder.  Thresh is such an amazing character and this act of kindness means everything to the whole series.  If Thresh had decided to just kill Katniss and get rid of a dangerous opponent, Peeta would have died (because he wouldn’t have the medicine) and eithe r Cato or Foxface would’ve won (because Cato killed Thresh a little later on).  There would’ve been no revolution (at least not then) and there would be no story.  Plus, the Everdeens and Hawthornes and Mellarks would have had to cope with the fallout of Katniss/Peeta’s deaths.  So, Thresh and his choice are both vital and he’s one of my favorite tributes.

Cato & Clove (aka Clato). What a new view of things!

Cato and Clove – I just want to spend a couple of seconds talking about the moment after Clove’s death when Cato runs over and tries to get her to wake up and he’s kneeling by her body and it’s actually pretty heartbreaking.  Because they’re still kids, even if they’re mean, and that just goes to show how hard the Games are for even them.  And don’t get me started on how the screenwriter for the first movie made Cato heartbreakingly understandable in the mutts scene.  That was horribly sad.



Peeta in 'Catching Fire' | It kills me. In every picture from Catching Fire Peeta, at a glance, looks normal. Not overly happy just average. But when you look closely, you find he's not. He looks sad. He's putting on a front, but he can't completely hide the deep sadness he has at the end of the day.
Peeta finding out that Katniss didn’t really love him – This part always makes me really sad.  After all Peeta’s been through, he discovers that the love Katniss supposedly felt for him was false.  Just imagine how that felt.  Terrible.  And he’s so sensitive (in a good, non-wimpy way) that I’m sure it cut right to his heart.  I know they make up in the second book, but leaving book one like that was sooo feelsy.  So, so feelsy.

What are some of the feelsiest scene from THG, in your opinion?